Good luck with that. I remember praying to God as a child, pleading with him to stop the abuse I was suffering at home, but all my prayers went unanswered. I suffered severe abuse for 13 1/2 years until I turned 18 and moved out. The abuse didn't stop until I finally found the strength within myself to confront my abusers (my adopted mother and my adopted older brother). The abuse I suffered at home all those years stopped when I confronted my abusive brother and threatened him with calling the police.
I saved myself. No one else in my life ever lifted a finger to help me; not my family, not the neighbors, not my teachers in school, and not even the Christian God who supposedly loves us all and sent his son to die for us. God obviously couldn't be bothered to save a little girl from being abused (physically, psychologically, sexually) at home and viciously bullied and harassed in school.
I'm glad to see that you're not falling for the lies that there's a God who loves us as Christians claim. I fell for it, but not anymore.
If there is a God, then he is a cruel, sadistic, psychopathic, bloodthirsty, genocidal monster. A malicious monster who deliberately turns a blind eye to countless children being abused, turns a blind eye to countless cold-blooded murders, turns a blind eye to countless people dying of deadly diseases and viruses, and turned a blind eye to the six million Jews who were gassed to death by the Nazis during the Holocaust. If the God of the Bible is real, then he deliberately turns a blind eye to all the violence and human suffering in the world. I don't know about anyone else, but that doesn't sound like a loving, merciful and compassionate God to me.