Hello, all.
As some of my friends here know, I have a cat named Foxy whom I love deeply. She and I have been friends for almost 10 years since she moved in with me. She is a kind-hearted cat, affectionate and loving. She is my heart, my best buddy, and my daughter. She is the last face I see at night and the first I see in the morning. I have lived by myself for about 10 years, alone but not lonely because of her.
Today I got some terrible news. Foxy has cancer and it is likely terminal. All I can do at this point is do what I can to maintain her quality of life and make her comfortable.
As a Buddhist, I know that all compounded things are impermanent. I realize that she, like all of us, has been dying since the day she was born. I know that life is dukkha. The Buddha teaches that it is those we love that are the greatest sources of suffering and misery within our lives. This concept is all too real for me at the moment. My craving to continue enjoying her presence, is based upon wrong views consisting of seeing a permanent self both in her and me. Intellectually I accept anatta; but, due to countless births and deaths in samsara, there is a deeply rooted "personality view" that still causes me to latch onto others as if they were enduring entities. This sets me up for future suffering. I know that who I call "Foxy" is a label for a particular collection of the aggregates. When her physical body breaks up, there will be a rebirth in another body. I know that the chain of cause and effect does not cease with the cessation of the physical body. I know the love we shared matters and will still matter in the future as it will condition future arising of consciousness and form.
I beg all of you who read this to take a moment and offer up prayers or good thoughts to my kitty cat. She needs it. Her condition may be terminal but it is still possible she and I could have many more months together. I deeply hope that she will be with me through at least Christmas. And just maybe... maybe even a miracle could restore her body and destroy the cancer within her.
:namaste
As some of my friends here know, I have a cat named Foxy whom I love deeply. She and I have been friends for almost 10 years since she moved in with me. She is a kind-hearted cat, affectionate and loving. She is my heart, my best buddy, and my daughter. She is the last face I see at night and the first I see in the morning. I have lived by myself for about 10 years, alone but not lonely because of her.
Today I got some terrible news. Foxy has cancer and it is likely terminal. All I can do at this point is do what I can to maintain her quality of life and make her comfortable.
As a Buddhist, I know that all compounded things are impermanent. I realize that she, like all of us, has been dying since the day she was born. I know that life is dukkha. The Buddha teaches that it is those we love that are the greatest sources of suffering and misery within our lives. This concept is all too real for me at the moment. My craving to continue enjoying her presence, is based upon wrong views consisting of seeing a permanent self both in her and me. Intellectually I accept anatta; but, due to countless births and deaths in samsara, there is a deeply rooted "personality view" that still causes me to latch onto others as if they were enduring entities. This sets me up for future suffering. I know that who I call "Foxy" is a label for a particular collection of the aggregates. When her physical body breaks up, there will be a rebirth in another body. I know that the chain of cause and effect does not cease with the cessation of the physical body. I know the love we shared matters and will still matter in the future as it will condition future arising of consciousness and form.
I beg all of you who read this to take a moment and offer up prayers or good thoughts to my kitty cat. She needs it. Her condition may be terminal but it is still possible she and I could have many more months together. I deeply hope that she will be with me through at least Christmas. And just maybe... maybe even a miracle could restore her body and destroy the cancer within her.
:namaste