Terrywoodenpic said:
I think with that you are building in an opt out.
Like your other example the addict. I was definitely a Tobacco addict till I was thirty. an inhaling pipe smoker. at least 1 ounce a day.
the day I gave up I went and bought 4 ounces put it with my pipe next to my chair and never touched it again. Iknew it was there and could have it if I wanted to. My wife said I was unbearable for over 6 months, I was always feeling ill no energy it was horrible. when I woke in the morning I would reach out for my pipe, have a curse and then get on with my day.
I am still addicted. one puff and I would be off again. But I am glad I gave up.
Like most things in life it is making the decision that that is the hard bit. keeping it up even harder. but then something takes over, you are still an addict but things become easier.
Marriage is like that, decisions must be held to. luckily we never had a serious row those we had were always unimportant. Looking back they always are.
Terry
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Blessed are the merciful, mercy shall be shown unto them.
I know and agree with what you say. I too was a heavy smoker 40+/day from 20-44 years old; I gave up overnight; I had tried before, but '
My heart wasn't in it.'
I made myself carry a cigarette case & lighter, and offered cigarettes to anyone else at social functions ( my wife and both my parents smoked; after a meal I would pass them around and light them ) - but that was just my way. The reason I gave up was because I was going to have a cataract op, and I had been warned off coughing after the op - it could split the stitches in the eye ball, and render me blind in that eye. That was good enough for me!
I am (well, I consider myself to be) an alcoholic - I have never been to a meeting, because I am well versed in the 'A.A' techniques, and that was why I made the suggestion in my last post - that is a VERY important factor for an alcoholic.
I can see though, having read your reply, that maybe what I suggested is a bit of a 'cop out' when applying the same system of thinking to marriage. It is certainly not the one Marie and I have towards our marriage - I could not contemplate leaving her, and I think I can safely say the same on her behalf. Even so, I am a bit of a 'handful' - I am disabled, suffer from depression, and have a highly addictive character. Though I am 56 I feel physically more like 66 or even more (Of course I can't KNOW, but I feel so totally decrepit).
I have even gone as far of telling Marie that I would understand her perfectly if she 'wanted out' - I really am a sad excuse for a husband; holidays, week end trips, most everything terrifies me; I am happiest here at the keyboard. Now that isn't much of a husband, is it ?- especially to a still young, vivacious woman who loves dancing & holidays!
I would, out of love, let her go to find hapiness elsewhere; but she doesn't want to entertain the idea - probably out of a feeling of duty - which makes me feel even more guilty.
I know we married 'for better or for worse', but I have more than a sneaky suspicion that poor Marie is getting the worse, while I am receiving the better.
Do you understand me a little better now ?