Privileged Guilt

[an anarchist]

How long have you felt this way?

I'm not sure. Now I'm thinking on it, I'm assuming much of my life.

 

[ChristineM]

I'm not sure. Now I'm thinking on it, I'm assuming much of my life.

Sent you a PM

 

[Quintessence]

To answer your question promptly: no. Mentally at least, but my physical health does reflect my mental health unfortunately. Though I do shrug this off at times due to my privilege. My privilege more than makes up for my poor mental health.

I have a Messiah Complex, so for me, suffering is entirely my fault. I can end everyone's suffering if I wanted to. I know the way forward. But I refuse. I blame everyone else too. If everyone only thought like me then we would be able to end suffering...

I finally meet a therapist later this week. I've been waiting many months for a therapist for my delusional thinking. The clinic's therapists passed my case off to one another without meeting me. The third therapist finally passed my case off to an organization that deals specifically with psychotic people, so I have my first meeting with that medical team this week.

So I'm not ok. Fret not, I am in the medical system. The gears of the medical system grinds slow, however.

They can, as can the process of change within ourselves. That's small consolation, but it's something I remind the students I work with who are also walking troubled paths to try and mediate expectations and help them to be kind to themselves by not expecting instant results. Perhaps somewhat to your OP's point, privilege has a way of making us expect instant fixes or instant gratification even when that's not realistic or reasonable. All the best as you navigate the winding road!

 

[The Hammer]

I hate that particular type of karmac bs.

What it essentially implies is an abused kid is getting what is deserved.

I was wondering who would call me out on that.

 

[Twilight Hue]

I was wondering who would call me out on that.

It was just something when I was learning about the caste and reincarnation system in India

It justifies a person who isn't having a good life and is suffering, as someone who deserved it because of bad deeds in a past life.

That type of thinking never resonated well and justifies cruelties imposed on others as something deserved of which never made sense at all to me as being some kind of cosmic scoreboard type of karma.

 

[The Hammer]

It was just something when I was learning about the caste and reincarnation system in India

It justifies a person who isn't having a good life and is suffering, as someone who deserved it because of bad deeds in a past life.

That type of thinking never resonated well and justifies cruelties imposed on others as something deserved of which never made sense at all to me as being some kind of cosmic scoreboard type of karma.

It can also be a way of looking at the hardships, trials and tribulations a person goes through; as lessons to learn from, due to current or past mistakes., as long as they absorb the lesson.

Fate puts us in situations for a reason.

 

[Twilight Hue]

It can also be a way of looking at the hardships, trials and tribulations a person goes through; as lessons to learn from, due to current or past mistakes., as long as they absorb the lesson.

Fate puts us in situations for a reason.

Personally karma is cause and effect to me.

But that can become complicated since I'm also interested in chaos theory.

 

[The Hammer]

Personally karma is cause and effect to me.

But that can become complicated since I'm also interested in chaos theory.

It's cause and effect for sure. But like the butterfly effect the smallest thing has lasting impacts.

Sometimes preceding lifetimes.

 

[flowerpower]

I think it's an unhealthy thing to feel guilt about.

It's a form of unhealthy guilt IMO.