Dawud
Areh Areeeeeeeeh
Asalaam-o-Alaikum,
I have been studying Ahmadiyyat for a short while. I started a few years ago but I never actively pursued it until late last year. I've been doing a lot of research and alhamdulillah it is really starting to pay off and my understanding is starting to grow. I would like to post an excerpt from an email I sent to an Ahmadi friend of mine that has been guiding my studies. He replied and I really appreciate what he had to say. However, I would like to see if any Ahmadi's on this forum would have anything to say about my thoughts.
Some background: I embraced Islam when I was 14 years old. By default, I was a Sunni. Unfortunately, because of my naivety, I got sucked into extremism. I was a member of a certain Muslim forum that has a heavy Deobandi and Ahl e Hadith presence. My local masjid was Deobandi oriented. I became a really rather hateful person. Fast forward a few years and after I had grown tired of the hatred that this community had, I began to research the Shia version of things. I didn't exactly do so of my own free choice, honestly. I was a huge Shia-hater (thanks to my Deobandi surroundings) and I got into some arguments at school over this. My high school had a heavy Shia presence (well, not particularly heavy, but the majority of Muslims there were Shia). Eventually one of them got angry enough at my ignorance that she told me to "read a f-cking book" instead of basing my opinions on false information. So I did just that. And I never stopped reading. I became a Shia when I was 17 or so years old. Now, however, I have grown tired of all the arguing that happens withing the Shia mazhab. After a brief period of confusion were I didn't know exactly what to believe, I embraced an ideology that was somewhat a mix of Akhbarism and the ideology of Sayed Sadiq al-Shirazi and his family. To this day, I maintain that this ideology is true Tashayyu' as it is what the earliest scholars held. However, there have been a few things that have made me doubt this position. They will, inshaAllah, be explained in the excerpt below.
I thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope that I have not offended anybody with this post. I realize that I have generalized both Shias and Sunnis an awful lot and I certainly don't mean to say that all Sunnis and all Shias are this way. I also apologize of any of the information I have on Ahmadiyyat is false or misrepresented; I'm still learning. I would appreciate any responses if you have anything to say.
Wa'salaam,
Dawud
P.S. I wasn't sure which section to put this. I decided not to put it in the Ahmadiyya DIR because I think perhaps that DIR is only for Ahmadi's to discuss and I am not (yet) an Ahmadi. Also, I wouldn't mind if a non-Ahmadi replied to my thoughts. I'm always open and willing to hear multiple perspectives.
P.P.S. I joined this forum because I can't find anywhere else that I can openly discuss Ahmadiyyat. Nearly every Muslim forum (Sunni/Shia/Quranist/Etc) I have seen has an extreme bias towards Ahmadiyyat and I'd really prefer not to be cursed. (Note: I'm not saying that all Shias and Sunnis curse Ahmadis! I just know that I would have cursed them back when I was a Shia/Sunni.)
I have been studying Ahmadiyyat for a short while. I started a few years ago but I never actively pursued it until late last year. I've been doing a lot of research and alhamdulillah it is really starting to pay off and my understanding is starting to grow. I would like to post an excerpt from an email I sent to an Ahmadi friend of mine that has been guiding my studies. He replied and I really appreciate what he had to say. However, I would like to see if any Ahmadi's on this forum would have anything to say about my thoughts.
Some background: I embraced Islam when I was 14 years old. By default, I was a Sunni. Unfortunately, because of my naivety, I got sucked into extremism. I was a member of a certain Muslim forum that has a heavy Deobandi and Ahl e Hadith presence. My local masjid was Deobandi oriented. I became a really rather hateful person. Fast forward a few years and after I had grown tired of the hatred that this community had, I began to research the Shia version of things. I didn't exactly do so of my own free choice, honestly. I was a huge Shia-hater (thanks to my Deobandi surroundings) and I got into some arguments at school over this. My high school had a heavy Shia presence (well, not particularly heavy, but the majority of Muslims there were Shia). Eventually one of them got angry enough at my ignorance that she told me to "read a f-cking book" instead of basing my opinions on false information. So I did just that. And I never stopped reading. I became a Shia when I was 17 or so years old. Now, however, I have grown tired of all the arguing that happens withing the Shia mazhab. After a brief period of confusion were I didn't know exactly what to believe, I embraced an ideology that was somewhat a mix of Akhbarism and the ideology of Sayed Sadiq al-Shirazi and his family. To this day, I maintain that this ideology is true Tashayyu' as it is what the earliest scholars held. However, there have been a few things that have made me doubt this position. They will, inshaAllah, be explained in the excerpt below.
First of all, the anti-Ahmadi propaganda is rubbish. I've read most of it that is out there. There are really two types. The first is an attack on the theology of Ahmadiyyat such as the belief in a Prophet after the Holy Prophet (s.a.w.a.) These attacks are based on misunderstandings, as far as I can tell. The second type of attack is that on the organizational structure of the Ahmadiyya Muslim Community. I also find this to be quite ignorant. One of the biggest attacks on the organizational structure is that of the collection of Chanda. As you explained it to me, as well as from what I have read, I see absolutely nothing wrong with Chanda. Shi'a clerics collect Khums (even though it isn't their right to) and Sunni clerics often ask for constant donations from their followers. Chanda, in my opinion, is superior to both systems. There are, of course, other attacks, but most of them are either unfounded or inconsequential. I have seen attacks on Huzoor (r.a.) cautioning the use of Facebook. I have seen his speeches where he states that he has never banned Facebook but that he merely wishes us to exercise caution with it. I see nothing wrong with this. I have, personally, deleted my Facebook account because I found it to be a huge waste of time as well as a breeding ground for fitna and fisq.
Secondly, as I read historical events from both Sunni and Shi'a perspectives, I can't help but feel that both sides are wrong. When I was a Shi'a, there were many things that I merely ignored because thinking about them would require me to reconsider a lot of my other beliefs. For example, my hatred towards Bibi `Aisha (r.a.) and the first 3 Khalifas (r.a.) One event that I recall is at the end of the Battle of Jamal, Hazrat Ali (r.a.) sent `Aisha (r.a.) back to Madinah with dignity. I asked myself why would he do this. At other times, Hazrat Ali (r.a.), as well as other Khalifas, had people put to death for fighting against them. `Aisha (r.a.) fought against Hazrat Ali (a.s.), yet he did not punish her. Clearly he knew something that we did not know. If, as some Shi'a claim, `Aisha (r.a.) poisoned the Holy Prophet (s.a.w.a.) and then fought the Imam of her time (r.a.), then Ali (r.a.) would have been well within his right to kill her. But he didn't; rather he sent her back to Madinah in a dignified manner. In addition to this, he gave his bay'at to the first 3 Khalifas (r.a.) For a long time, I thought that this was forced. Umar (r.a.) had burned down his house and killed his wife and child before he gave his bay'at. Why, then, did he also give his bay'at to Uthman (r.a.) after Umar (r.a.) had died? If the threat of violence was no longer there, why did he continue to align himself with the Khalifat? According to Hadeeth al-Thaqalayn, we are to follow the Qur'an and the Ahlulbayt. Hazrat Ali (r.a.), a member of the Ahlulbayt, gave his allegiance to Abu Bakr, Umar, and Uthman (r.a.), therefore, who am I to question this? To believe the Shi'a version of events, I would have to believe that Ali (r.a.) was weak and cowardly not to defend his wife and himself. That is something that I cannot accept. Also, when Uthman (r.a.) was besieged by the Khawarij, it was Hazrat Hassan and Hazrat Hussain (r.a.) that defended him. He (Uthman) ordered those two to leave for their own protection but they refused. If Uthman (r.a.) was an enemy to the Ahlulbayt, why was the Ahlulbayt defending them with their lives? It just does not add up.
On the other hand, I can't accept the Sunni version of history either. Most of the Sunnis that I know (apart from a few fringe Sufis) believe that Yazeed was a righteous person and that Hazrat Hussain (r.a.) was in error by fighting him and that he got what he deserved during the Battle of Karbala. This, to me, is completely wrong. As mentioned above, we are to follow the Qur'an and the Ahlulbayt, and, Hazrat Hussain (r.a.), as a member of the Ahlulbayt, stood up against the tyrant Yazeed. Therefore, we should support him in this.
All in all, I think that both perspectives are completely missing the mark. I am disgusted by how violent and hateful a lot of Sunnis seem to be. Likewise, I am disgusted by how superstitious and illogical a lot Shi'a seem to be. Both sides have clearly departed from the teachings of the Holy Prophet (s.a.w.a.)
That leads me to Ahmadiyyat. I am finding, more and more, that the teachings of Hazrat Ahmad (a.s.) are both incredibly honest and logical. When I read about his life and the way he interacted with others, I can't help but draw a parallel to the life of the Holy Prophet (s.a.w.a.) They both spent a lot of time in seclusion praying. They both were incredibly gentle and kind. They both faced extreme persecution and they both turned the other cheek for as long as they could. They both accepted all human beings regardless of how bad their past was. And they both left an incredible mark upon history that even non-Muslims have good things to say about them.
I am not sure where this leaves me. On one hand, the more research I do, the more convinced I become of the claims of the Promised Messiah (a.s.) On the other hand, I am not worthy to become a murid. I am a vile sinner and it would be wrong of me to defame Ahmadiyyat by aligning myself with something so pure and holy. Iltemas-e-Dua.
I thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope that I have not offended anybody with this post. I realize that I have generalized both Shias and Sunnis an awful lot and I certainly don't mean to say that all Sunnis and all Shias are this way. I also apologize of any of the information I have on Ahmadiyyat is false or misrepresented; I'm still learning. I would appreciate any responses if you have anything to say.
Wa'salaam,
Dawud
P.S. I wasn't sure which section to put this. I decided not to put it in the Ahmadiyya DIR because I think perhaps that DIR is only for Ahmadi's to discuss and I am not (yet) an Ahmadi. Also, I wouldn't mind if a non-Ahmadi replied to my thoughts. I'm always open and willing to hear multiple perspectives.
P.P.S. I joined this forum because I can't find anywhere else that I can openly discuss Ahmadiyyat. Nearly every Muslim forum (Sunni/Shia/Quranist/Etc) I have seen has an extreme bias towards Ahmadiyyat and I'd really prefer not to be cursed. (Note: I'm not saying that all Shias and Sunnis curse Ahmadis! I just know that I would have cursed them back when I was a Shia/Sunni.)