Satan Taunts Me.

[michel]

You know, you may right. But why would Satan want me to do this?

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[IndigoChild]

You know, you may right. But why would Satan want me to do this?

Forget about God and Satan for now, those are scapegoats and excuses. Look at yourself objectively, with reason, and you will see that you're being unreasonable. So what if Katie Holmes got her wish to be with Tom Cruise? She's gorgeous and she can act, that's how she did it. I don't know, of course, but you do: are you handsome? Can you act? Do you have any talents that could possibly make you a celebrity?

Then think honestly on these questions:

Even if you became a celebrity, is it even possible that she would be attracted to you? She could be married, for all you know, or a lesbian. Who knows?

The point is, you're not listening to sense. The odds are highly against you. Furthermore, how old are you?

I know what it's like to be obsessed. I was once obsessed with someone I could not ever possibly even truly HOPE of ever having. But I convinced myself, against my reason, that I could have her... and the seeking out of trying to get her nearly ruined me. It would have, if I hadn't FINALLY listened to reason.

I heard something on TV the other day that relates to this. It was an ad for one of those fictional shows about murders, that are based on reality. The quote came from a convicted serial rapist. He said, essentially, that when a normal person is attracted to someone, they can push that aside if they need to. But for him, when he found someone attractive, "the whole world melts away except for me and her, and I MUST have her."

Not to compare you to that sicko, I'm just afraid that if you continue to let this carry you away, that you could ruin your life.

Kat

 

[IndigoChild]

Are you saying I have personal problems? Well, to tell you truth, I don't. I'm really just lonely and I found comfort in knowing I had a destiny in this. I wish I had the counsel of someone who understood this. I really don't know what to think to tell you the truth. I went on these forums to see if I was actually crazy for thinking that God was telling me to do this. Perhaps my intuition is misguided.

I truly understand being lonely and finding comfort in an object of lust and obsession. Truly, I do. But you're slipping way past fantasy into delusion, like I did once, and if you don't find reality again you may end up in a situation that you don't like one little bit.

Just so you're clear on this, I have something to say: because I see my past in you, I do not judge you. I think you're letting your lonliness control you and are thus losing your grip on reality. I'm sorry if anything I've said has come off the wrong way, but I am truly concerned about you. Your pain is my pain, literally and figuratively. To this day I have troubles with loneliness, but I don't let myself lose my grip on reality. The general sense of peace and stillness I mostly feel today is a LOT better-feeling, in my opinion, than the obsession I was once in.

Kat

 

[Prima]

I went on these forums to see if I was actually crazy for thinking that God was telling me to do this

But now the majority of people here are saying that yes, you are mentally unbalanced. If you came here to find an answer, why aren't you listening to the answer?

I think you should read [email protected]. It's a great book about someone in almost exactly the same situation.

http://library.co.chesterfield.va.us/search/t?SEARCH=will@epi Not sure if you can get to that, but the book isn't on Amazon

 

[Xaero4]

Thank you indigo child, thank you all.

 

[IndigoChild]

God never spoke to me, I just got a very strong feeling. I wish he had, because I would have actually had something to go on. I just wanted to be something. Be something important. Maybe my inpatience and my inability to let the future guide me has led to my downfall in this situation.

God speaks to all of us, all the time, with our experiences and feelings. It is just a matter of who listens. The trouble, sometimes, is discerning feelings from thoughts... because thoughts can sometimes masquerade as feelings.

You ARE something important, already! You are of God, and God is of you. We all are made of the same stuff as God, because God is All There Really Is. Even if all you believe of that is that you are a child of God, do you imagine that makes you any less glorious than any one person? Society tends to over-value certain people over others, but all people are equally glorious to God. Just as the butterfly flying in San Francisco changes the weather on the other side of the world, your mere presence on Earth changes everything.

Kat

 

[IndigoChild]

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While I respect your belief in Satan as an outside force of evil, I disagree with it. Furthermore, I disagree with telling this poor soul about Satan as an outside force of evil. What he needs to do is to take responsibility for his own thoughts and feelings, instead of projecting them onto outside people or forces. What one does not own one cannot control, after all.

Kat

 

[IndigoChild]

Thank you indigo child, thank you all.

You're welcome. I love helping people.

Love your signature, by the way.

Kat

 

[The Black Whirlwind]

my friend, if satan existed, he would want you to go through with this because it may ruin your life. As Confucius says, To approach something from the wrong end will cause nothing but harm. Please abandon this endeavor, for your own sake.

 

[IndigoChild]

Not to compare you to that sicko, I'm just afraid that if you continue to let this carry you away, that you could ruin your life.

Kat

ANd here is another example of the difficulty of my path... I sometimes forget my wording and resort to judgmental words. See my sig.

Kat

 

[Xaero4]

Indigo, you havn't been judgmental at all.

 

[Xaero4]

Just disregard this topic guys. Its over.

 

[IndigoChild]

Indigo, you havn't been judgmental at all.

Not against you, perhaps. And my comment was more on my choice of words.

What religion are you? I'm assuming Christian?

Now I am going to suggest you read "Conversations With God" by Neale Donald Walsch and then not speak of it again unless you ask me to.

Kat

 

[Xaero4]

I am what I like to call a "Freelance Christian". I believe in God and the communication of God with men through mysterious means (why do you think this topic grew in the first place) but I adapt many of my beliefs through what I see in the world. I don't go to church (I used to) because of my inability to relate to the people of the church. I could go pretty deep into this, but the forums wouldn't have enough room for it. I am currently 16, and I'm a decent looking guy, if I do say so myself. I know you people probably viewed me as some really wierd nerdy kid huddled in the corner watching recordings of Cheat (a show on g4tv, the show she currently hosts). Well, if you guys have any questions, comments, anything send my an e-mail or ask me here.

 

[kreeden]

I don't think that you are " sick " , although I could be wrong . I don't know you well enough for that , and judging from your own words , I think that you know what the problem is Xaero . You say that you are lonely . That is not something that is easy to admit .

You were very honest in saying that . Now , be honest with yourself and ask " Why would God want me to be involved with this woman ?" You don't have to tell me the reasons , they are for you to straighten out . But I would bet my right arm the God doesn't want this , but that you want it . Even though you don't even know the woman .

Find someone your own age , go on a few dates , and see how you feel while on those dates .