Are you saying that your calling is Pain, or somehow you will attain "Piety" threw pain? I can tell you that no real Piety comes from pain. No one becomes Pious threw pain, but threw their compassion towards others and spreading their Love. Sometimes people are punished for this (Jesus Christ), but it is not the pain that made him Pious, its the Love and Forgiveness that he gave to others. I dont agree with some christians that say because Jesus suffered, he is Pious, no! Its his Love and Forgiveness that made him Pious.
I feel like this is a dream that is saying, "Become Pious!", but it has somehow become distorted and mixed with other content of the mind. Be Compassionate, spread forgiveness to yourself and to others, and your automatically Pious!
If anything I said is incorrect, please bring it to the surface so we can talk more!