Maybe you all can help me figure out what I'm looking for. I consider myself religious in that I participate regularly in the public and private worship of my faith tradition and gain spiritual benefit from so doing. I use the associated terminology and artifacts of the religion, but not necessarily in the way they are meant to be utilized or understood.
I am also spiritual in that I intuit God's presence (most especially in nature) and find myself philosophizing a lot. However, I do not "believe" that "my religion is literally true". I believe it's a beautiful metaphor, and when I spend the time reflecting on the deeper meanings of things my church teaches as "fact", I can see their "Truth" without necessarily believing the literalness of the surface meaning.
I do not want to change churches/religions bc that's not the point. I like the rituals of my own tradition. I just find it hard to have meaningful conversations on spiritual subjects with people from my own faith tradition because, well, they take things too literally and often I have to censor myself to not let the proverbial cat out of the bag that I'm one of those apostates or heretics! (Like when I'm "warned" not to do Yoga.)
I'm not sure how to mingle with generically SBNR folks, bc I think there are way too many subcategories of that identity. Many are not aligned with my views (various new-age beliefs and certain far-leaning political views), so we don't see eye to eye. I think I'm also looked at with suspicion because I am religious on the surface.
I need to discover the vocabulary to define what I'm talking about so I can better search for likeminded individuals. That's where you lovely people come in
To sum up - I believe in one, personal, transendent and benevolent God, and I believe in eternal life. I do not know any further details of either, and I don't really like what my religion offers up. I enjoy yoga, Tai-Chi, meditation/contemplation/mindfulness. I've done past life regressions though I'm very skeptical. I try to follow the moral imperatives taught and lived out by Jesus of Nazareth. I enjoy the liturgy of Byzentine Christianity (both Orthodox and Catholic, though I only commune with the Catholics as I "am" Catholic). I read the Bible and enjoy various Christian music, both traditional hymns, chants, and modern. Lately I've been trying to figure out where the line is between my spirituality and my politics, as that has recently shifted quite a bit.
Thoughts?
And if I sound like your kind of weirdo, send me a PM!