Correct me if I'm wrong, but you did mention you had left the Christian religion? If so, I'd offer friendly advice that you shouldn't underestimate the influence that has on the very way in which people think and perceive things after leaving the faith. It's not just a matter of changing beliefs, which is relatively easy. It's a matter of an entire mode of perception and way of thinking which takes years and years of very self-aware effort to even begin to change. Most just think they no longer think in these terms because they are no longer a theist. That's really not the case. It's a lot more deeply rooted and ingrained than that, and that make people uncomfortable to hear that as they think they've "overcome" all that.
I'll share one quick story to make this point. A friend of mine whom I had graduated from Bible college with many years ago, who like me had left that religion were out having lunch together. As a now self-proclaimed atheist he said to me looking back at those earlier days, "I'm so glad I know the truth now!". I paused and looked at him then answered to challenge him purposefully, "I remember you and I saying the same thing when we were students together back in Bible College". He stopped cold for a moment and responded, "Yeah, but the difference is now I really DO have the truth". You see? Had the mindset actually changed yet? No, I don't believe so. Only the beliefs changed.
Well me "leaving" is a technicality on my part.
I naturally question things and have always been unsatisfied with half assed answers.
So I was a Christian until I was maybe 7.
Hardly old enough to start thinking about big issues.
But to me they were never big issues, just questions they couldn't answer for me.
My priest never liked being asked, "how do you know you aren't wrong?"
Even when I believed in the Christian faith I hated it.
My parents are fundamentalists and my mother is a control freak.
So Christian ideology being shoved down my throat literally on a daily basis was not the way to bring me over to their side.
Her actions towards me have also caused me some mental issues, as I have recently had diagnosed.
But that's for another time.
I had never really questioned a "God" because I had no reason to, the area I lived in and my life style revolved around that.
As soon as I got into books (I've loved reading for as long as I can remember) I realized that there are other things out there.
My opinions changed with my level of knowledge, eventually leading me to apatheism.
So to say something on the lines of, "it sticks with you" is only accurate in some areas.
The only thing that has stuck with me religion wise is a hatred for whichever Christian brainwashed my mother into disowning me,
and simply because I don't believe the same thing as her.
I still live with her, sadly.
I am 17 after all, but 1 more month and I'm out.
I've been paying for my own food almost every day and my college too.
I've also been kicked out several times, only to be brought back by police.
Blah blah blah. My life is sad. Who cares.
Back to topic.
The only Christian thoughts I have now are of a biased distaste.
I realize that is biased and refuse to make an effort to change it.
So, was my response sufficient in answering any doubts about how I think?