@Bthoth ... I am trying very hard to see what you are driving at, because despite the impenetrably abstruse language you use and your propensity for insulting posters who question what you have written, I actually think (unless I am still not reading very well) you might have an interesting way of viewing reality. Please let me know if any of the following is anywhere close:
1. I note that you identify as a "pantheist" - that implies that "all is God" and may possibly entail (depending on what exactly one means by "pantheist") that there is some level of universal or cosmic consciousness...am I right so far? (I know a lot of people around here on both sides of the theist/atheist divide would poo-poo that idea as a load of old woo-woo, but I don't necessarily - again depending on what exactly one means by "consciousness" - personally I prefer the word "experiential" but again that can be wildly misinterpreted).
2. Anyway, with 1 in mind, would I be correct in taking your repeated "life intends to survive" implies the idea that at some level, somehow, the universe (aka "god", aka "pantheos", aka the whole thing as a whole, aka...) has produced life "on purpose" - as it were - and is "intent" - as it were - on ensuring that life continues?
3. Would I also be correct in taking your repeated mentions of how you see "energy" and "light" differently than most people to be indicative of the idea that electromagnetic radiation is how the "living, conscious universe" (aka "god" etc.) mediates that "intent" to propagate and sustain life?
Before I continue, am I anywhere close so far?