I can feel that tonight is going to be, yet again, yet another restless night. I wish the anti-depressants I've been given for this actually worked better for me. Amitriptaline made me sleep, very well, but when I wake up for the first time (which is actually in the morning an not shortly after I've fallen asleep) it takes me hours to be able to stay awake and get out of bed. Latuda had me sleeping very well, and waking up feeling refreshed, but I also end up feeling very lonely, extremely sexually frustrated, and wishing my life could just hurry up and get over with.
I think I'm going to have to come up with some saying about how sleeping is harder than reading Nietzsche, Shakespeare, Paradise Lost, Moby Dick, or making it through Machiavelli without an encyclopedia (which is also pretty much needed for Paradise Lost, and even the Divine Comedy, unless you have a Ph.D. in history and religion and have spent a great deal of time studying Roman and Italian history).
