I think it's probably better to be optimistic rather than to be pessimistic, but I do find myself very easily slipping into pessimism. But I think that maybe I am not sure about what exactly is happening out there, out there beyond my 'lens' of perception. And I am also not entirely sure, perhaps, about where each side of 'lens' starts and stops, in regards to where the 'border' is between my lens and me. For example, is my body a part of the world, or is my body a part of me? How about thoughts - do they enter me like radio signals, or do I generate most of them?
Ostensibly I can see dystopia out there, but I also can see the potential for harmony and joy etc. It looks to me like lives have been lived where hopes were fulfilled, great experiences had, and the overall experience was wonderful and worthwhile. I also seem to see useless conflict. In the past few days, they have been fighting around a large nuclear power plant in ukraine, for example. That seems dangerous, and seems like it doesn't have much historical precedent.
In my communications with the Tarot, I often seem to come up as being associated with the pentacle suit. So I think this describes either what I am all about, what I want to find or see, or possibly how I see things. Maybe it is all of that. But in any case, this is relevant because I am associated with the material world. I often post about nature, and see science as putting forth powerful laws, about what we can and can't do. But I know that the pentacle represents just 1/4 of what reality is, and that I should have faith in the other suits. The pentacle falls short, and only tells some of the story
For example, I think the material world can be sloppy and disgusting. The body itself is kind of gross - yesterday I think I threw up, because I ate expired blueberries in my oatmeal. Insects to me, are pretty gross. I see ants carrying around thoraxes, and peddling earthworm sections on the sidewalk. I drip with gross sweat when it is 90 degrees. Ok, there's all that, but at the same time, some parts of the material world seem to glitter with beauty. Outside, it is ostensibly the perfect summer day. It is in the 70's with blue skies and lush green plant growth
Different things that science can do, and that material does, seem fascinating and useful, and beautiful, despite grossness. A leftover bug thorax is gross, but a high resolution picture from nasa, showing the greater whole, is beautiful. A working machine, a space station, an automated system that does something for humans, a scientific process that does something useful, can all be materially impressive and greatly useful.
But the pentacle is only one suit. The others are far less materially grounded - the wands, the swords, and the cups. None of those other suits are actually about material, from what I can currently tell, and those other suits also pour their energy into the world. And when the materialism of the pentacles interacts with those other suits, I think illusions can be created, and flows of energy that you can't see materially exist. It is all somewhat complicated