But the choice is still theirs, and yours. You make the decision, you stand accountable for that decision, you reap the consequences. If you want to believe that God does not want you to read the words that he compiled for you then you must accept your mistake and put it right. It is spiritual. It is your spirit communicating with the spirit of God. It is as real as anything that you do, but that nobody will believe. You have to be converted by the spirit of God otherwise you will be living a lie.
I am a Christian. I strive to follow the teachings of Jesus Christ continuously.
James 1:5-6
5 If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
6 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.
3 Behold, I would exhort you that when ye shall read these things, if it be wisdom in God that ye should read them, that ye would remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men, from the creation of Adam even down until the time that ye shall receive these things, and ponder it in your hearts.
4 And when ye shall receive these things, I would exhort you that ye would ask God, the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ, if these things are not true; and if ye shall ask with a sincere heart, with real intent, having faith in Christ, he will manifest the truth of it unto you, by the power of the Holy Ghost.
5 And by the power of the Holy Ghost ye may know the btruth of all things.