Whiterain
Get me off of this planet
I like how if you start getting subversive about the dogma you're the anti-christ or the fool or the mule.
Seven long years ago my bludgeoned journey through psychosis began. All day every day with my visions and the general vassalage "my life" quickly became. It was humbling to share with you some of my experiences, as you can see they are quite extravagant, mortifying and perhaps down right masochistic on their behalf. I'm apparently quite an old hero, mass murderer, it seems. It doesn't inflate my ego or flatter me at all, I found it quite devastating. Were I would be exalting and venerating myself about my make believe prowess on the battlefield, unwavering courage, valor and lunacy, I'm just a monster. I'm just a loser right now, but that's destined to change. Moving on, I was trying to articulate this in a way to display things people often do not consider.
Not by my example alone but how catastrophic the whole of immortality would be. The psychological trauma of these beings would be inconceivable. But with people it's all about their coping and their needs, or their country's needs. Based on my chronic visions the collective of us all have suffered inconceivable tragedies but their coping abilities are amazing, insanity helps impressively well. Throughout this on going junket they were working to break my mind. I remain impermeable and even enjoy the on going challenge of retaining my sanity with their constant games.
I laugh a lot, out loud, and can't explain it often these days... I quickly have to think of a show or joke to reference too, people often call me on my deceit. However, my psychosis is quite evident to some, as they are kind enough to inform me that I look a little "psychotic" at times.
Regardless, I tried to meet a middle ground between psychosis and gnosis/divine intervention... The Atheists continued to call me an imbecile and moron even if I did respect their views and accept them. The religious folks scorned me because I wasn't "Committing" to the delusions and off on some delusional fantasy, that I would like to be on, like decimating the Church and being regaled as the Anti-Christ, but I'm not. They also got so mad because I said the truth is polytheism, because religious people are incompetent anyway. The Atheists are the bread winners in this cosmic gag, them's sensible folk.
So I'm ready to stop caring for now and barely even share my philosophies. This society stinks, there are no guilds, no ludus, no affordable fight school and I can't go back in the military or police force. I'm stuck in practically my own banal little nightmare world. This would basically be why gangsters happen, but I'm not resorting to joining some band of motorcycle riding junkies yet.
Ultimately the power of God could be proven to the world at anytime, unless it were covered up. Now is apparently not the time to venerate myself on internet forums or help anyone. The Gods are virtuoso in their works, and their wrath may never be sated. This is it folks, the wrath of the Gods and it seems indefinite.
Salute
Seven long years ago my bludgeoned journey through psychosis began. All day every day with my visions and the general vassalage "my life" quickly became. It was humbling to share with you some of my experiences, as you can see they are quite extravagant, mortifying and perhaps down right masochistic on their behalf. I'm apparently quite an old hero, mass murderer, it seems. It doesn't inflate my ego or flatter me at all, I found it quite devastating. Were I would be exalting and venerating myself about my make believe prowess on the battlefield, unwavering courage, valor and lunacy, I'm just a monster. I'm just a loser right now, but that's destined to change. Moving on, I was trying to articulate this in a way to display things people often do not consider.
Not by my example alone but how catastrophic the whole of immortality would be. The psychological trauma of these beings would be inconceivable. But with people it's all about their coping and their needs, or their country's needs. Based on my chronic visions the collective of us all have suffered inconceivable tragedies but their coping abilities are amazing, insanity helps impressively well. Throughout this on going junket they were working to break my mind. I remain impermeable and even enjoy the on going challenge of retaining my sanity with their constant games.
I laugh a lot, out loud, and can't explain it often these days... I quickly have to think of a show or joke to reference too, people often call me on my deceit. However, my psychosis is quite evident to some, as they are kind enough to inform me that I look a little "psychotic" at times.
Regardless, I tried to meet a middle ground between psychosis and gnosis/divine intervention... The Atheists continued to call me an imbecile and moron even if I did respect their views and accept them. The religious folks scorned me because I wasn't "Committing" to the delusions and off on some delusional fantasy, that I would like to be on, like decimating the Church and being regaled as the Anti-Christ, but I'm not. They also got so mad because I said the truth is polytheism, because religious people are incompetent anyway. The Atheists are the bread winners in this cosmic gag, them's sensible folk.
So I'm ready to stop caring for now and barely even share my philosophies. This society stinks, there are no guilds, no ludus, no affordable fight school and I can't go back in the military or police force. I'm stuck in practically my own banal little nightmare world. This would basically be why gangsters happen, but I'm not resorting to joining some band of motorcycle riding junkies yet.
Ultimately the power of God could be proven to the world at anytime, unless it were covered up. Now is apparently not the time to venerate myself on internet forums or help anyone. The Gods are virtuoso in their works, and their wrath may never be sated. This is it folks, the wrath of the Gods and it seems indefinite.
Salute