First of all, I just want to say I'm sorry that your thread was so quickly derailed by an ignorant homophobe. You didn't deserve or ask for that.
Second, as a gay man who grew up immersed in conservative Christian culture and who's family did not take his coming out terribly well, I completely empathize with your situation. For me personally, I had to come to a point where the prospect of coming out was less painful than continuing to live in denial in the closet and pretending I'm someone I'm not. And as anxiety-provoking as coming out to certain people was, being on this side of it now, I am so glad I did.
I don't know where you live, but I would encourage you to try to find LGBT groups or activities near you to get connected with the community. Even in conservative areas, you'd be surprised what's out there.
There is lots of love out there waiting for you: from other LGBT people, from allies, and from partners I'm sure you'll eventually have.
I'm also happy to chat privately with you in PM if you want.
Stay strong, you're gonna be fine.