Serenity, your theology is stretched so tightly and so thin you are poised for it to snap on you. And that would be good. In that moment, you let go of these walls of defense you are trying so hard to make impenetrable through your stubbornness. I see this as a spiritual thing for you, one of avoidance. "I must be right! The word of God is plain and simple. See?" You are trying to convince yourself of something by walling yourself off and away from knowledge. You are trying to convince yourself you are accepted by God or something, but in so doing you push God out. God is found in release, not in following the letter of the law.
Well if it was going to snap on me surely it would have done just that over the last 20 odd years. It has always been sound doctrine to me and has always enhanced my mortal existence.
I genuinely do not know to what you refer when you say that I am putting up a defense. A defense against what exactly. I am not defending baptism as it is clearly written in the scriptures and defends itself. When the Lord say that even if you look at a woman with lust in your eyes so have you committed adultery does that require explanation. If I defend it am I being stubborn because some men got together and decided that blind people can commit adultery. What do you need explaining about "16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned." Am I being stubborn by agreeing with the word of God? How can you read the following in any other way but the letter?
Romans 2:
38 Peter replied, “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.
I believe the Scriptures to be the inspired word of god, written by man and compiled by God. That is my right. I am not trying to convince myself that it is right. I have faith in the Lord Jesus Christ and know it is true through the Power of the Holy Ghost. Should you wish to believe in an alternative than that is your prerogative. I am not trying to convince you of anything different. Ask me what my opinion is and I will tell you.
I will not know if my God accepts me until the great and dreadful day of Judgement. I try to live in accordance to the precepts and principles of the Gospel in the hope that my Saviour will bridge the gap and reason with God on my behalf.
If the letter of the law means that I should not bare false witness or commit adultery than I guess I live by the letter of the law. If there is a grey area in a parable then I guess I don't always.
I came up with a saying yesterday morning that came to mind as I was waking. Theology is our last ditch effort of our minds to understand God before we fail, and do. Although in your case, I don't think your looking and failing in the attempts. I think your hiding behind the Bible in how you wish it to look.
It looks as my mind perceive it to look and the spirit dictates. If it were of bad consequence than I am sure that my life, and the happiness that me and mine have enjoyed, would not have been so rewarding. I will soon go to my maker in the knowledge that I did all that I could to follow his teachings and be a good and faithful servant. I have no regrets and I do not complicate it either.
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Serenity