It would definitely be a challenge to convert to an all vegetarian diet, especially being raised a meat eater. I don't like the idea of killing anything and the Buddhist view of respect for all life is very appealing. On the other hand, I sure do like meat.
Yea I can definitely relate.
I think death and dying is an adversarial condition givin why so many decide to abstain from partaking in the act of killing animals and/or consuming animal flesh.
No living thing proactively wants to die or suffer, so I understand from an empathetic standpoint, however one look at raw nature is telling and unavoidable, yet it's place and role become apparant on a grand scale.
I've been an advocate of practicing a middle way approach by which meat consumption and humane slaughter go hand in hand with compassion in face of the direct reality concerning life and death.
There is no doubt that everyone of us lives a life of consumption and that of being consumed, weither any decision to eat meat is made or not.