Unveiled Artist
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I go through this cycle. Suddenly I feel strong spiritual inclination, I try to find a religion or spirituality that will satisfy said inclination, I find no evidence then finally I give up and eventually it will start all over again. When I've tried to find correlation with any particular events like massive stress, new environment ect there is no noticeable connection.
I am very curious as to why I've so often sought out the spiritual when just about everyone else I knew either made up their minds or just further explored their own path. No answer whether positive or negative seems to satisfy.
There is a whole extra annoying element as well. Pretty much every time you try to talk to someone or well I've tried to talk to someone they treat it in the most childish terms. They'll speak down to you like you're in baby's first religion course. Like you've never read anything on religion and you clearly need to be addressed like a child.
I should point out this whole cycle doesn't just have an effect on my spiritual life. The same sort of cycle will come in hobbies and interest in general. I'll get a sudden intense interest in something and focus on almost nothing but that then in a few weeks or a couple months It will switch to something completely different. Some people say that is just life but the sheer intensity of the change make me think there is something more going on there.
So what is it that attracts people to the spiritual to begin with?
I have a very very similar situation. I also have anxiety, in additon depression and seizures. Anxiety and depression has a lot to do with how we interpret reality. I personally feel I have ADD but if its a physical issue say you go get your keys, pick them up, your bring switches, you drop the keys go back to the bed get up and say thats right breakfast take everything out put on the stove, then picm up your keys, put the bowl in the refrigetator, and leave to run back and turn off the stove,
This sounds exaggerated but its not. If your mind does this in general, Id mention this to youe doctor.
Spiritually, Ive been Buddhist, then Catholic, then pagan. I found religion or spiritual paths dont work well for me because of my spontenous brain cant function on one disciple.
So I have many interests such as creativity. If you have many interest, set different projects (say if you like art) in different areas of your room or if you have your own place your home. When your interest switches, dont throw the other things you lost interest away (thats also a depression thing in IMO) but just calmly switch projects. Its literally meditative multitasking.
Religions with discipline may not match your personality. Maybe find a Univeralist Uniterian church so you have a sense of community without disciplinary religion. (And you arent marked off for not attending meetings).
What are you interested in? Maybe list all the things you "were" interested in and are "now". Which ones have you stuck with (maybe self reflection. Maybe some things you do and dont realize they are interests you do as habit and fun).
Trying to think of other things. Use your interests as your spirituality. Write it down. When your mind switches dont beat yourself up. Youre just taking a break. Ride the wave of the new interest then write it down whe you feel it slipping. Notice which interest you come back to more often.
Invest time in it by reflection and maybe reminders to do at least one thing a day related to that interest. For example, I love art. Sometimez my mind shifts but I always carry my pad and pencils just in case my interest come back. If I dont pray for a month, I try not to fret. I let it come naturally.
You may want to reflect on what spirituality means and what your personality and values are. There is probably a religion out there but unless youre willing to put effort (a lot of it more than many) in an interested spiritual path, I dont feel disciplinary religions will work for you.
Try spontenuity and meditative multitasking.
Hope this helps.