It's on two levels... one is the introductory experience that many people have .. a glimpse into reality ... the one that nobody can stop talking about, the type that everyone has, the spark ...
and then ... a million times the power of those little ones, is the culminating one, which will change you forever ... from from then onward you live, and have to come out from that permanent reality, not some glimpse of it
it is this second one I claim to never have had ...
but from words alone nobody can decipher the difference,
I wouldnt dwell on it if I were you. Most people havent, maybe at tops about 5% of people. Of that 5% many dont value it at all. Some probably think they just got a hold of some bad food. Like anything else in life, if it has no value, its soon forgotten.