What is your major malfunction?

[Rival]

I'm often depressive and suicidal and starting to wonder if it's part of a bigger problem.

 

[mangalavara]

I'm often depressive and suicidal and starting to wonder if it's part of a bigger problem.

We really need a hug button on RF.

I hope everything gets better for you, my lovely friend.

 

[Spiderman]

I'm often depressive and suicidal and starting to wonder if it's part of a bigger problem.

Sleep deprivation and unhealthy sleep by itself can do that.

Not having parents who were responsible and who didn't set a good example can lead one to feel very empty, insecure, and leave people more at risk for a variety of mental, emotional, and physical disorders.

I'm not saying you have any of those, or suggesting it, but chronic sleep deprivation alone causes serious depression for obvious reasons. And of course, severe depression leads to suicidal thoughts.

I'm sad to hear you are going through that , and will be sure to pray for you.

I don't just tell people "I'll pray for you", but I sincerely offer my prayers and suffering up to God for you, hoping you will find peace, happiness, and meaning in life, with enlightenment, understanding, and all that good stuff! Amen!

Take care.

(Sorry if I ever say something that makes your depression worse .)

 

[mangalavara]

Have you ever had cancer?

No, but it runs in the family. My mother has a type of bone cancer, and it has been a little over two years now since she has had it, I think. My father gets cancerous spots on his skin sometimes and has to get the cancer removed at a dermatology place. As someone with fair skin, I always wear long sleeves outdoors unless it is going to be overcast the whole day. I also always wear trousers, not just to protect myself but also because I just dislike shorts. Additionally, if I have to walk under the sun, I use a black umbrella to shield myself from the sun. Recently, my father and I were walking in the downtown area on a sunny ( ) day, and, seeing me with my umbrella, he said to me, 'I'm glad you're taking this skin cancer thing seriously.' Hopefully, I will never get it.

What the hell is wrong with you?

I'm a timid person.

 

[Alienistic]

Have to give credit to the human beings. Most have been through hell and back to varying degrees and just keep up strumming along. Resilient and strong.

 

[JustGeorge]

Maybe the Gods will help me on this front too.

I hope so.

 

[amorphous_constellation]

Well I think that beyond some issues that are more peripheral, or at the core of them, I think the ultimate sort of issue that I have really developed would be an 'oscillating sense of general dread.' Yes, it is oscillating. Worrying about the future, worrying about others, but it swings like a pendulum, back to a superficial sense of calm, when I have to put it on the back-burner, and sleep to go to work

 

[Jeremiah Ames]

I'm schizoaffective with a load of problems that I have already shared at RF.

Cancer runs in my family , thanks to Jesus. . I will not be taking chemo when/if I get that lovely ticket out of this stupid world.

(Sorry, the world has a lot of beauty, but it has been an extremely miserable journey , and I'm always surrounded by stupid annoying people , whose only interest seems to be drugs, money, cars, sex, and hip-hop.

Yes, that lifestyle and mentality, I find stupid. But I was there, I'm trying to love them, and I'm trying to grow in maturity and charity and patience.)

Have you ever had cancer?

What the hell is wrong with you?

There is plenty wrong with me:

I realize that I don’t know anything.

I realize, like you, that there is way way way too much stupid in the world.

I realize that’s I’m probably going to live too long.

I am tired quite a bit.

I weigh too much.

I like sweets too much.

 

[Aupmanyav]

What the hell is wrong with you?

An inactive left eye.
A soon to malfunction heart.
Muscle cramps - some times.

 

[Truthseeker]

I'm schizoaffective with a load of problems that I have already shared at RF.

Cancer runs in my family , thanks to Jesus. . I will not be taking chemo when/if I get that lovely ticket out of this stupid world.

(Sorry, the world has a lot of beauty, but it has been an extremely miserable journey , and I'm always surrounded by stupid annoying people , whose only interest seems to be drugs, money, cars, sex, and hip-hop.

Yes, that lifestyle and mentality, I find stupid. But I was there, I'm trying to love them, and I'm trying to grow in maturity and charity and patience.)

Have you ever had cancer?

What the hell is wrong with you?

I am either a higher functioning autistic person or have Asperger's. This means I am not social among other things, but for some reason this has changed some recently. I am very good at Mathematics partly as a result of this condition. My son is autistic, and cannot talk. He has a good personality, though.

I grew up with bad attention deficit, I hardly paid attention to what what the teacher was saying in the classroom a lot of the time. That has improved over time.

I have generalized anxiety. This does affect me now that there is less to be anxious about in retirement.

I have an inherited condition that I have, I forget the name of, it is rare. I have less strength in my legs. I am limited in how far I can walk each day. My brothers had this much worse. My younger brother from an early age had trouble walking, had trouble keeping his balance. In addition he what they call the complicated form which made him have an unpleasant personality, paranoid and the like. My older brother when he went to graduate school could not take the stress and bombed out. This was the beginning of his illness. Later he also had trouble keeping his balance at an older age than my younger brother. My younger bother died at 54, my older bother at 68. I am 70, I am not schizophrenic or paranoid, I don't have trouble with my balance really. This condition does not bother me at all.

A couple of years ago, as a reaction to withdrawing from Haldol, I suddenly contracted tardive dyskinesia. I could not keep my balance very well, I could not eat properly, only drinking or soft foods. I shook. Things went from bad to worse for a while. Then they found the proper drug for me. It costs thousands of dollars, but with a combination of social security insurance and charitable contributions from Healthwell Foundation, there's no problem. The drug has not worn off in it's effect over time, as I expected. I feel back to where I was before this happened. The only problem is will the charity continue indefinitely.

All in all, I am content.

 

[Truthseeker]

The main thing wrong with me is Autism Spectrum Disorder. It has negatively impacted my life and my social skills are delayed due to it, but by God's grace I am learning to work around it.

Welcome to the club. I am on the spectrum, too. I am coping well, also. There are other issues, but they are being dealt with or are not a problem anymore. I didn't learn I was on the spectrum until I suspected at 41 when my son was diagnosed with autism.

 

[Truthseeker]

I have chronic, ruthless insomnia.

That's something I forgot to mention. I have to take a prescribed medication I take each night to sleep. It snuck up on me over time. No problem right now.

 

[RestlessSoul]

I’m an alcoholic and a drug addict, should have died many times really; but I’m clean and sober nearly 20 years, thanks to God and AA.

Thing is, I know it’s a God of my understanding who is keeping me sober. Hence it’s a little frustrating when I see people’s religious or spiritual beliefs ridiculed by cynics. Still, I try to love the angry and the ignorant, because I am angry and ignorant too sometimes.

 

[Aupmanyav]

I have to have a cup of tea* some days to get to sleep.
* Indian style, boiled dark with some sugar and milk.

Chai, Samosa and Jalebi, perfect combination.

 

[Heyo]

I have awful self esteem,

... and no reason for it. At least here on RF your communication is the most engaging measuring by your frubes/posts ratio.

 

[Heyo]

I'm schizoaffective with a load of problems that I have already shared at RF.

Cancer runs in my family , thanks to Jesus. . I will not be taking chemo when/if I get that lovely ticket out of this stupid world.

(Sorry, the world has a lot of beauty, but it has been an extremely miserable journey , and I'm always surrounded by stupid annoying people , whose only interest seems to be drugs, money, cars, sex, and hip-hop.

Yes, that lifestyle and mentality, I find stupid. But I was there, I'm trying to love them, and I'm trying to grow in maturity and charity and patience.)

Have you ever had cancer?

What the hell is wrong with you?

My uncle died of cancer at 87. That's the only known case of cancer in my family. My parents are, for their age, very healthy at 86 and 88. My physical health is exceptional for my life style.
If it wasn't for my depression, I'd have nothing to worry about.

 

[ChristineM]

Have you ever had cancer?

Nope, but thought i did, hence my recent stomach and bowl scoping. Turns out to be scar tissue from previous operations.

Hubby has had prostate cancer, following radical surgery involving a robot followed by an intense course of radiotherapy he has been left with erectile problems (solvable) and radiation burns to his bowels, bladder and intestines. But he should live a fairly normal life.

This has taught me one thing, "cancer" is a word, not a sentence

 

[Mock Turtle]

Possibly my major malfunction, unless corrected by the good people of RF, would be that even if I might have insights as to experiences that might improve the lives of some, I don't tend to proselytise them (not being up to defending them without disclosing too much) and if I ever do so, it will come from writing, that might or might not be published, and perhaps after my death.

 

[JustGeorge]

... and no reason for it. At least here on RF your communication is the most engaging measuring by your frubes/posts ratio.

Its just one of those things that happen after years of being around poo-heads that say mean things.

 

[Spiderman]

Well I think that beyond some issues that are more peripheral, or at the core of them, I think the ultimate sort of issue that I have really developed would be an 'oscillating sense of general dread.' Yes, it is oscillating. Worrying about the future, worrying about others, but it swings like a pendulum, back to a superficial sense of calm, when I have to put it on the back-burner, and sleep to go to work

That sounds horrifying.

May God give you basis for trusting in powers greater than yourself (God , the Angels, the Saints, the good spirits, the Kami) and deliver you from "oscillating sense of general dread".

os·cil·late
/ˈäsəˌlāt/
verb
gerund or present participle: oscillating

1. 1.
   move or swing back and forth at a regular speed.
   "a pendulum oscillates about its lowest point"

Amen!

Lord God, please stop letting people waste time, energy, and potential in fear. Take their fears away and stop giving them countless reasons to not trust you. Amen!

So many fears never come true. So many worries or completely in vain. It's sad