The questions I ponder are what am I doing right, and what am I doing wrong, and how can I fix that.
I try to simplify my practice because the more complex it is the less I get out of it.
I'm down to virtues and vices as a moral foundation. I tend to think that life is something we are inventing and there is no paved way from a one true pure source.
Anyways as creatures we are forced to make judgment calls about how we apply our practices. I do not want to be a critical, and damning spirit. But I do have to make judgment calls based on what I consider to be deserving or not.
I aspire to be, more than figure myself to already have attained.
When I study qualities of character I am looking at those meanings objectively and studying how they might apply to circumstances I come across. I find great wisdom in simple language. Language is born out of necessity. Life is trial and error til you get it right.
Bad habits and regret are hard things to face. However I know that the human plight is one of limitations, uncertainty, and flaws. If you don't take care of yourself you can't be any good to anybody.
I have no use for the word perfection in terms of spiritual growth.
Currently I try to unlearn all the bad influences of Christianity.