When a black "cloud" leave the mind.

[YoursTrue]

I do not think of the past experience that was be earlier, and i dont worry about the future, these two was a major problem for me earlier because it controlled my life. Even the two years since i first come to RF, i went through a lot that never showed up here in my posts. Only the last 6 months or so my problem in life started to really surface online too. Mood that went from high to low in a few minutes and so on.

The last 3 weeks has been with few to no negatthoughts about my self or others. Because the realization of that every problem i faced was araising from my own being. The personality Amanaki took everything personally, and it was a major fault. Letting go of Amanaki personality made it possible to be free

Ok. I don't know how to let go of my personality, it changes in small increments as I learn. If I could get rid of it and become a wonderful, beautiful in spirit and mind person, that would be great. But it isn't going to happen in its entirety now. For instance today I had the opportunity to lie in order to gain advantage. I thought long and hard about it, but decided not to skirt around the bush. Therefore I lost some money but don't have a smeared conscienxe. I look forward to the future however. Thanks for conversation.

 

[YoursTrue]

I do not think of the past experience that was be earlier, and i dont worry about the future, these two was a major problem for me earlier because it controlled my life. Even the two years since i first come to RF, i went through a lot that never showed up here in my posts. Only the last 6 months or so my problem in life started to really surface online too. Mood that went from high to low in a few minutes and so on.

The last 3 weeks has been with few to no negatthoughts about my self or others. Because the realization of that every problem i faced was araising from my own being. The personality Amanaki took everything personally, and it was a major fault. Letting go of Amanaki personality made it possible to be free

Some people are more popular than others. Doesn't necessarily matter how good or bad they are. But you're bringing out an interesting point. Jesus said to keep doing good.

 

[Spirit of Light]

Ok. I don't know how to let go of my personality, it changes in small increments as I learn. If I could get rid of it and become a wonderful, beautiful in spirit and mind person, that would be great. But it isn't going to happen in its entirety now. I look forward to the future however. Thanks for conversation.

Letting go of self/ego/ personality is not done in a day even in the struggle that was life before there was a journey that started in 1997 that jorney too a trip of 20 years cultivating buddhism, a few times into Falun Gong practice, and end of this year in to islam and the study under Allah. Only after beginning the study of Islam did the identity/self start to fade away. Then as said before 3 weeks ago everything from within changed very fast, and ended up as it is today

 

[Spirit of Light]

Some people are more popular than others. Doesn't necessarily matter how good or bad they are. But you're bringing out an interesting point. Jesus said to keep doing good.

Being popular and selfless is possible, maybe Jesus was speaking of that in the form of doing good and accept both praise and dislikes when it happens without taking it personally

 

[YoursTrue]

A thing that is about clinging to the past or worry about future is that you forget to live now in the present moment

Our minds consider what's beyond our minds, even considering what we can't see. Such as eternity.

 

[BlueSky95]

Sorry for using my self as the example in yet an other thread from me.

The last few days i have had an experience that truly changed my way of thinking.
It feels like a black cloud has been lifted off of my mind. I see a lot more clearly now, and i dont mean just spirituality, i mean in the physical world too.
My brain seem to not be sluggish anymore. And emotions like anger, frustration and hoplesness is gone. Even my body feels more light.
I dont know yet if this is temporarly or will stay this way.

Have you has similar experience in your life, spiritually or non spiritually ?

I experienced something like this years ago, I was so bad at math and physics, one day I woke up and I felt completely different, as if my eyes were fully open, I became very good at math and physics, I fell in love with science in general, became one of the best in my highschool. I had a state of 24/24 of happiness, love for everyone and everything, I was smiling all day, then some years later I found myself stuck in depression. That incredible clarity is still here but I can't use it because I suffer from a very deep depression.... I also experience from time to time this incredible state of awareness, but it only lasts for a day or two..... because depression always comes back... I feel that my life has been stolen from me and there's nothing I can't do.....

 

[Spirit of Light]

I experienced something like this years ago, I was so bad at math and physics, one day I woke up and I felt completely different, as if my eyes were fully open, I became very good at math and physics, I fell in love with science in general, became one of the best in my highschool. I had a state of 24/24 of happiness, love for everyone and everything, I was smiling all day, then some years later I found myself stuck in depression. That incredible clarity is still here but I can't use it because I suffer from a very deep depression.... I also experience from time to time this incredible state of awareness, but it only lasts for a day or two..... because depression always comes back... I feel that my life has been stolen from me and there's nothing I can't do.....

Depression can be difficult to get out from (speaking from experience) but even it is very hard work from within, it is possible. You have experienced the good side too, so deep within you the answer is already there
If possible, a key is to let go of the attachments to the past, especially the notion from fear of the depression.

 

[YoursTrue]

I experienced something like this years ago, I was so bad at math and physics, one day I woke up and I felt completely different, as if my eyes were fully open, I became very good at math and physics, I fell in love with science in general, became one of the best in my highschool. I had a state of 24/24 of happiness, love for everyone and everything, I was smiling all day, then some years later I found myself stuck in depression. That incredible clarity is still here but I can't use it because I suffer from a very deep depression.... I also experience from time to time this incredible state of awareness, but it only lasts for a day or two..... because depression always comes back... I feel that my life has been stolen from me and there's nothing I can't do.....

Hmm yes I understand slightly. I believe since I'm a female I have a different set of circumstantial feelings, growing up also has a lot to do with it. And I'm a big girl now. Being as it is, I suffer my share, shall we say, of depression and anxiety. However, I do have a hope that keeps me going. This is the promise of a new heaven and new earth. Oh, and lest I forget, in my older age I have become much more interested in science than I used to be. Still, I can't figure much about how they figure some atoms are heavier than others. Well still to learn. Meantime, I'm trying to tell the difference of taste between a red onion and a white onion.

 

[YoursTrue]

I do not think of the past experience that was be earlier, and i dont worry about the future, these two was a major problem for me earlier because it controlled my life. Even the two years since i first come to RF, i went through a lot that never showed up here in my posts. Only the last 6 months or so my problem in life started to really surface online too. Mood that went from high to low in a few minutes and so on.

The last 3 weeks has been with few to no negatthoughts about my self or others. Because the realization of that every problem i faced was araising from my own being. The personality Amanaki took everything personally, and it was a major fault. Letting go of Amanaki personality made it possible to be free

As far as past experiences go, there are some things that come back to my mind that I've done that I truly regret. When that happens I pray. I am glad I know what the Bible says and I am also glad that the great God allows the opportunity now and in the future to work it out.

 

[YoursTrue]

Being popular and selfless is possible, maybe Jesus was speaking of that in the form of doing good and accept both praise and dislikes when it happens without taking it personally

Well, the Mosaic Law Code had provisions in it for penalties for sin. It is quite interesting, because of the sacrifice Jesus made and how it works into reconciliation with God.

 

[YoursTrue]

A thing that is about clinging to the past or worry about future is that you forget to live now in the present moment

The point I was trying to make is that it is assumed that animals do not consider things like what does the universe hold for them, or what is the nature of God, or if angels spoke to prophets. They just...are, without much besides instinct.