Second option is harder I'd say, being confused and conflicted about anything is difficult and especially so when it is about your standing in life and the universe as a whole. That said, which one would I prefer?
I've gone through pretty much all of my life as a confused and conflicted person, and the security and warmness of Option 1 is appealing, but I don't think personally I could stand something like that for long, one of the great things about ambiguity is you never know what to expect and it keeps things interesting. In addition I'd find it difficult to ground myself in something like Christianity, but that's just my opinion.
I've gone through pretty much all of my life as a confused and conflicted person, and the security and warmness of Option 1 is appealing, but I don't think personally I could stand something like that for long, one of the great things about ambiguity is you never know what to expect and it keeps things interesting. In addition I'd find it difficult to ground myself in something like Christianity, but that's just my opinion.