Cant tell if youre being snarky to be honest. My stress cortex is hyper sensestve too. Waaaa. But Ill give you both a hi!
But thanks for the replies, I like to be polite.
I have been Christian and Buddhist. Christianity I liked the seromon on the mount especially, and Buddhism I was with the NKT (New Kadampa Tradition, a Western based tantric group).
But substitution theory is too gruesome for me, and if all beings have been my kind mother in the past, I don't want to get all close up and tantric with any of them.
Still I like meditation, it keeps me sane.
I learned that visualisation can be helpful - I didn't know about it, I only used to daydream that was it.