Haha, okay guys! Thank you all for your patience and good will!
My first idea why I started this thread though was not to understand Zen in the sense of 'I know Zen now', but getting an idea what it is about, how it works, and why the methods and practices of Zen where chosen the way they are. I know, that it is not about learning a lesson somebody teaches me, but that I have to make my own experiences, that nobody can 'solve' something
for me, what limits the the answers of questions to be some kind inspiration, but never a solution, since the inner experience is impossible to verbalize. I understand, that it's about insight through feeling and not through thinking or words. I never expected answers about the content of Zen, maybe not even what Zen
is, but more on the tools that are given to those who practice it. My questions about the ethical content, about the relation to the 'tools' of Buddhism and about the 'coldness' of Zen where answered to my satisfaction.
I don't wanna 'learn' Zen by asking questions in this forum, just share some thoughts and get feedback
So, thanks all!
Peace