My answer to that is if God didn't allow evil you would not have a life and that is what will happen when Jesus returns if you haven't received Him as Lord and Savior.
I believe finding a church where the Holy Spirit has the congregation speaking in tongues might help. If you are not open or trying to do it yourself that won't work.
My parents believed in going to church on Christmas and Easter, my grandmother believed in going to church every sunday. I chose to believe as my grandmother believed.
I believe that because the Bible clearly shows that Jesus was conceived and that it was God who was the indwelling Spirit. Saying that Jesus was there before assumes that Jesus had another spirit separate from God which is not the case.