Welcome to the forum Richard. I hope you will find what you are seeking. At one point in time I was travelling down the road you are. I suffer from Bipolar and OCD ... I felt like I was alone. I am not a Christian anymore, but I have found a path that works for me and makes me happy. Don't loose...
I really need to get out more ... which is why I'm going out tomorrow night with my best friend ^_^ She's 12 years younger than I am and we became friends because of Martial Arts. She was the best sparring partner
Why in the hell does he get to be happy when I am miserable. I makes me so ******* mad that I can't see straight. I don't have the ability to turn my heart off like he does. Did I mean nothing to him? Did he even love me at all? I want to scream and shout and beat the the **** out of him ... but...
I've decided to give my heart a chance to really heal. Whatever (or whoever) waits for me after this will come when it's time. It's best to work on myself so I can give that person the best me, not the broken me.
I practice magic, not black magic or white magic, just magic. Energy is energy and it can be neither good nor bad. It is up to the practitioner to decide which way to direct the energy.
I hope that made sense.