Even so, that'd be God working through me. If we're talking about my own choices and motivations, we're talking about me working through me: my choices, my motivations.No because one of the way god works is through human agencies.
If God's going to use me as a human agent, then I don't see how my personal motivations are relevant. If he can pull the strings to make me do what he wants, then that'll happen whether or not I want to help. No?
Who says that these things are mutually exclusive? The fact that I see a need doesn't mean that I can't want to fill it.You won't get a lot of milage if you feel presurized to do something.
You would last longer if you want to do it.
Go with what you want. Don't force yourself.