IndigoChild5559
Loving God and my neighbor as myself.
Well, obviously my recommendation is that you engage in monotheism without the Trinity. Viewing Jesus as God is a muddied sort of monotheism because it associates a person with God who is not God. There are strict monotheists that do worship in Christian churches, but I don't know how they manage, personally. However, I stay out of it.Honestly? The trinity has always been something I either tried to explain in my own way, or ignored as best I could. In the past, I've explored various non-trinitarian (and non-Christian) belief systems, starting some twenty years ago I would say. Most recently, though, I spent the last three years or so really trying to "fake it till I make it" in the Catholic Christian identity. I really tried. I said I believed things that I doubted, trusting that they would work themselves out. This year I became more vocal in my church with several speaking opportunities, one in particular being my faith journey. Not long after this, all the old doubts returned. I believe God is a mystery, but I no longer believe that the Trinity is a mystery. It's confusion. That's not the same thing, and I don't believe God is a God of confusion, but of clarity, peace, and tranquility.
A follow up question to your comment regarding being "fine as a Gentile ethical monotheist" - I'm assuming that would mean not being involved in a Trinitarian church though? If so, a decision has to be reached - where do I worship God and with whom and how?
You might want to message Rival, who is noachide, and see what he does as far as worship is concerned, whether he worships alone or as part of a Jewish community. He's a pretty friendly guy.
Did you say you had tried Unitarian Universalist? They would welcome you, although it tends to be a hodge podge of beliefs, including some that you might find offensive.
If you are willing to tolerate non-Western culture, ethical monotheism is embraced by Islam, Sikhism, and Baha'i. Each of those has their pluses and minuses, as always.
I think that no matter what, you have to come to terms with the fact that if you embrace a religious community, it means embracing others that will not agree with you on all things. Such is life, grasshopper. <3