I'm sorry hear it's something you still struggle with but it's good to know you are coping.
Interesting that my ex had a very similar view on god as you do, although he doesn't see himself as Jewish in any way.
What's your relationship with being Jewish?
Oh yes, my ex's school was next to the girls school so they used to speak to girls via the phone box opposite the street
cute right?
Did you ever go to college, or study anything else?
How long have you been experiencing social anxiety and are you aware of what led to it?