Thank you for your suggestion. In the past I explored the Jews for Jesus organization, and was on the path too proclaiming myself a Messianic Jew. However, I also took the time to research Jews for Judaism, and get the Jewish response to all of my questions. I soon, and overwhelmingly realized that too much of Christian ideology directly contradicts the Hebrew Bible that we Jews read. And although I think Christianity is a wonderful religion that has done so much for people(I truly can't put my appreciation into words), I just feel like since I was born Jewish, I have certain responsibilities that most people don't have, and I can't just dismiss these responsibilities out of ignorance - I was born Jewish for a reason.
I really do think Jesus plays a crucial role in God's plan, and I am still trying to figure out exactly how. We Jews are supposed to be a light to other nations, as Isaiah teaches us.. and I think its fair to say that Jesus, a Jew, has brought more people to the light of God than perhaps any other Jew. I think this fact can not be overlooked and must be respected, and I do plan to read the NT one day, to at least study Jesus's words and determine for myself if he is a true prophet or not. But for now, too much of Christian ideology simply contradicts the Bible I read, and I feel like I was born with the responsibility and obligation to acknowledge that, and stay true to my Jewish roots and Torah.
I have had this discussion with so many Christians, so I doubt you could bring anything new to the table. No Christian has been able to explain to me why I would
need Jesus. I
know my sins can be forgiven without Jesus's blood(feel free to read my proof for this
here).. and I don't understand why I need to devote myself to the "messiah" when not a single verse in the Hebrew Bible says eternal salvation is achieved through devotion to the messiah. Rather we Jews are taught to put ALL of our devotion to the one and only God, and to Him alone. For God revealed Himself to my people long ago at Mt. Sinai.. and we have been worshiping Him ever since, for He is our savior as Isaiah 43:3 says. We have faith in Him and that ALL of his promises/prophecies will be fulfilled. Why would I ever need to be my faith and devotion to someone else?