Frank's journal of whatever

[Saint Frankenstein]

Now I regret throwing out my Kroger apron and cutting up my name tag. Hahaha. Kroger is to me what Macy's was to my mom - can't escape it no matter how much we want to or try.

 

[InChrist]

I'm honestly not. I don't want to be here anymore. I want to be with my mom, my dog and all the others I've lost. I hate my life and hate this world. I'd never choose this, and I don't recall making the choice to be here. There's no point in continuing to try over and over, when things constantly come crashing down on me. I am not in control of my life, despite whatever efforts I make. Others are calling the shots and they don't care what I think about it and don't even ask me before they make their callous decisions.

This life can be really difficult and you’re right there’s so, so much we just can’t control. But your life here is important. You just never know what change or opportunity tomorrow or some future moment may hold or how you may be able to help or influence someone else through the experiences you’ve had.
I understand how much you must miss your mom and dog, but I hope you will trust in God’s timing and purpose for your life. I appreciate you and consider your life to be valuable and precious, probably in ways I don’t fully know or understand.

 

[JustGeorge]

Exactly. I definitely lost the genetic lottery, too. Both sides of my family are intensely abusive (physically, sexually, psychologically) hateful dysfunctional messes. Severe mental illness and addiction on both sides, along with other health problems. Then you add poverty and my dad running off when I was really young, I really didn't have much of a chance from the beginning. Even being born was a trial as I was a high risk pregnancy, was premature and had to be on a ventilator after I was born.

Sounds like the makings of a difficult childhood.

If you've seen Taxi Driver, it's very similar but even more focused on how society treats the mentally ill and abused.

I haven't. I haven't seen many movies.

Well...it seems I'm going back to hell (aka Kroger). Lol. I gave in and applied to them again - for 3 different positions, even! - yesterday and I just got an interview offer. Hahaha. I knew that dump was really hurting for people as every time I go in there recently, it's like a ghost town when it comes to employees. They must've just gone through a wave of people quitting/being fired. The job listings had been up for over 3 months and I was the first to apply, apparently. Lol.

Whatever. It's just a means to an end. I know how to do the job, and who is friendly and who is definitely an enemy. I even was honest about my felony and all, which they ask about and they do background checks. But I know Kroger is actually lax, sometimes to a shady extent, about that when they want to be.

For what its worth, better luck this time. And I hope you're able to bring a little happiness to those others who are stuck there, too.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

This life can be really difficult and you’re right there’s so, so much we just can’t control. But your life here is important. You just never know what change or opportunity tomorrow or some future moment may hold or how you may be able to help or influence someone else through the experiences you’ve had.
I understand how much you must miss your mom and dog, but I hope you will trust in God’s timing and purpose for your life. I appreciate you and consider your life to be valuable and precious, probably in ways I don’t fully know or understand.

Thank you.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I went to therapy today and my therapist said he hasn't heard anything about my funding being cancelled. So we're just continuing as usual. What it is, is that the court is funding it so it was my probation officer who told me this. He doesn't support this action and is doing what he can. I'm not that worried about it now, though.

I'm not worried because I have my interview with Kroger tomorrow morning and I'm pretty positive I'm going back to work there. I know they're desperate for workers. So I'll just find health coverage through the exchange after I'm working.

I spoke to my property manager today and it's official that all the rent has been paid up and that shows on my ledger now. So that nightmare is behind me. I also brought up wanting a new dog and she said I can have on, I just need to do the emotional support animal paperwork again. That made me happy to hear. Maybe I will get myself a dog as a Yule present.

 

[JustGeorge]

I went to therapy today and my therapist said he hasn't heard anything about my funding being cancelled. So we're just continuing as usual. What it is, is that the court is funding it so it was my probation officer who told me this. He doesn't support this action and is doing what he can. I'm not that worried about it now, though.

I'm not worried because I have my interview with Kroger tomorrow morning and I'm pretty positive I'm going back to work there. I know they're desperate for workers. So I'll just find health coverage through the exchange after I'm working.

I spoke to my property manager today and it's official that all the rent has been paid up and that shows on my ledger now. So that nightmare is behind me. I also brought up wanting a new dog and she said I can have on, I just need to do the emotional support animal paperwork again. That made me happy to hear. Maybe I will get myself a dog as a Yule present.

Seems like okay news today. Glad to hear it!

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I went to my interview. It wasn't much of an interview. The lady seemed shocked I even showed up, since most of the interviewees apparently aren't and it mostly consisted of her asking me what my availability is. So they're really hurting for people. I just have to wait for her to talk to the manager (well, the store manager since it's her choice, really) and get back to me. I'm sure that will be fine as the store manager told me she would take me back before. She said she'll get back to me today. Watch I'll start working tomorrow. Lol.

 

[JustGeorge]

I went to my interview. It wasn't much of an interview. The lady seemed shocked I even showed up, since most of the interviewees apparently aren't and it mostly consisted of her asking me what my availability is. So they're really hurting for people. I just have to wait for her to talk to the manager (well, the store manager since it's her choice, really) and get back to me. I'm sure that will be fine as the store manager told me she would take me back before. She said she'll get back to me today. Watch I'll start working tomorrow. Lol.

I hope it goes better this time around.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I hope it goes better this time around.

I just want money!

 

[JustGeorge]

I just want money!

Understandable!

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Understandable!

It's not surprising that there wasn't much to the interview as she already knows me and I worked there for years. I don't know what I was expecting. A grilling? Lol.

 

[mangalavara]

It's not surprising that there wasn't much to the interview as she already knows me and I worked there for years. I don't know what I was expecting. A grilling? Lol.

From what I was told, when someone returns to work as an employee at Kroger again, it is company policy to give that person the plague… Wait, no, I meant ‘the plaque.’ Etched onto the plaque are the words ‘Don’t forget, you’re here forever.’

Anyway, congratulations on getting the interview. Well done on showing up.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

From what I was told, when someone returns to work as an employee at Kroger again, it is company policy to give that person the plague… Wait, no, I meant ‘the plaque.’ Etched onto the plaque are the word ‘Don’t forget, you’re here forever.’

Anyway, congratulations on getting the interview. Well done on showing up.

Well, you were told the truth. Lol. They have a serious revolving door issue there. Even with me, this isn't my first time quitting and coming back. It's actually my 3rd. My plaque must've gotten lost in the mail. The plague, on the other hand... Lol.

Thanks!

 

[mangalavara]

What it is, is that the court is funding it so it was my probation officer who told me this. He doesn't support this action and is doing what he can.

If I understand correctly, is the court wanting to cut funding but your probation officer does not support the court doing that?

I spoke to my property manager today and it's official that all the rent has been paid up and that shows on my ledger now. So that nightmare is behind me.

Wonderful!

I also brought up wanting a new dog and she said I can have on, I just need to do the emotional support animal paperwork again. That made me happy to hear. Maybe I will get myself a dog as a Yule present.

I rejoice that you have that prospect now!

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

If I understand correctly, is the court wanting to cut funding but your probation officer does not support the court doing that?

Yes. I don't understand what their thinking is. My PO hasn't said what their reasoning is, and my therapist doesn't get it, either. His understanding is that the service continues until it's decided it's not needed anymore. Regardless, I'm still going to my therapist. We'll see what happens.

Wonderful!



I rejoice that you have that prospect now!

Me, too! I really want another dog soon! The cat needs a new friend, as well. My cat is driving me crazy with her constant need for attention. Then after I start working, she's going to be bored as hell by herself for hours. I told her she better figure out a way to entertain herself while I'm gone. That'll end up biting me in the butt and I'll come home to everything torn to shreds. Lol.

 

[mangalavara]

My plaque must've gotten lost in the mail.

Some illiterate petty thief probably swiped it, hung it on his wall, and looks at it most days in order to feel big and important.

The plague, on the other hand... Lol.

You should be safe if you immerse yourself in a tub full of hand sanitizer after work.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Some illiterate petty thief probably swiped it, hung it on his wall, and looks at it most days in order to feel big and important.



You should be safe if you immerse yourself in a tub full of hand sanitizer after work.

Oh, yes. I have public health horror stories. People taking a dump and not washing their hands, then going to shop is terrible enough. But constantly working with someone who is a hygiene nightmare is torturous. A guy out at the fuel station kiosk who was the most disgusting person I've ever worked with. He would sit with his finger shoved up his nose in front of the window at the register, get his snot all the place, cough and sneeze into his hands, not clean them and then use the register. He got me and someone else sick multiple times. This guy is almost 60.

 

[mangalavara]

Yes. I don't understand what their thinking is. My PO hasn't said what their reasoning is, and my therapist doesn't get it, either. His understanding is that the service continues until it's decided it's not needed anymore. Regardless, I'm still going to my therapist. We'll see what happens.

Yeah, that’s weird.

My cat is driving me crazy with her constant need for attention.

You’re obviously a very good pet owner.

Then after I start working, she's going to be bored as hell by herself for hours. I told her she better figure out a way to entertain herself while I'm gone. That'll end up biting me in the butt and I'll come home to everything torn to shreds. Lol.

Things torn to shreds and a table no longer on four legs but two.

 

[ChristineM]

I'm not worried because I have my interview with Kroger tomorrow morning and I'm pretty positive I'm going back to work there.

Best of luck for the job. The crap youve had recently you are due good luck.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Yeah, that’s weird.

I love how the court doesn't talk to me about this or send me anything in the mail. I mean, I would think my opinion should matter somewhat since it's my care.

You’re obviously a very good pet owner.

Thanks. I try to be. I know it's because she loves me a lot. She's really just a normal cat there.

Things torn to shreds and a table no longer on four legs but two.

She's already tearing up my cushion on the couch. I know she's doing it on purpose because it's specifically that cushion and not the others. Lol.