And I reject atheism as a foolish and unnecessary rejection of this potentially very useful, positive option, for no rational reason.
That's exactly how I feel about faith and theism. It is a foolish and unnecessary rejection of reason that both reason and my experience indicate serves
no useful purpose in my life.
Your argument seems to be that a god belief comforts you.:
- "It is no defense of superstition and pseudoscience to say that it brings solace and comfort to people…If solace and comfort are how we judge the worth of something, then consider that tobacco brings solace and comfort to smokers; alcohol brings it to drinkers; drugs of all kinds bring it to addicts; the fall of cards and the run of horses bring it to gamblers; cruelty and violence bring it to sociopaths. Judge by solace and comfort only and there is no behaviour we ought to interfere with." - Isaac Asimov
That's why when atheists reject the idea, having never actively applied any faith to it, nor adjusted the idea to better suit their application of faith, they gain no experiential results. And thus they claim "there is no evidence" to support the belief. Atheism is like closing the barn door before the horse can get in, and then burning the barn down because they find is to be "empty and useless".
My return to atheism was due to opening the barn door and finding no horse there. You don't seem to understand that there are people who have followed your path, had a different experience, and now reject your claims for a benefit in belief. If frustrates you. Sorry, but maybe you should start listening to others rather than filtering them through a confirmation bias that transforms them into stubborn people that won't even consider the possibility of gods or give theism a chance.
If you still have difficulty understanding that, imagine somebody making an analogous claim to you about astrology. How about if I said that rejecting astrology was foolish - that you were rejecting for no rational reason a very useful, positive option that satisfied a need in me?
Then how about if you answered that had tried it - had been into it for years when younger - and found it to be less than useless because you actually made bad decision based on horoscopes. How about if I answered that you just didn't try the right kind of astrology - that you just tried some man-made version of it, and search for your own ways to write horoscopes?
Pretty tempting, huh?