Maija
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Namaste - Vanakkam- Namashkar I am back on RF, back and ready to learn and read more in the Hindu DIR.
Some of you might remember me, to others I may be a new name..
I guess I had a moment where I felt I was seeking for so long, but the more I sought to take in, the more questions I had and the less I felt I knew. In the end I felt I should return to my roots, this didn't last long.
It reminds me a bit of this saying:
“Only two kinds of people can attain self-knowledge: those who are not encumbered at all with learning, that is to say, whose minds are not over-crowded with thoughts borrowed from others; and those who, after studying all the scriptures and sciences, have come to realize that they know nothing.”
― Ramakrishna, Sayings of Sri Ramakrishna
So, perhaps that saying is not accurate, but for me it became a truth, the underlined part. Granted, I was doing way too much reading of too many sorts of texts, now I would like to go back and focus on only texts pertaining to SD, like the Rig Veda and I know a certain person who speaks highly of the Tirukkural .. Perhaps a good translation of these will be recommended.
I've read a few copies of the Gita and in highschool sections of the Upanishads and I enjoyed them all.
Why I came back:
Without talking negatively about any previously explored faiths, I felt like they no longer for lack of a better word, filled me in the same way (think water on a hot day)- not only that there were aspects that I could not come into agreement with. If one wishes, I can go into this in private PMs, but I do not wish what could be construed as negatively about a faith that has worked for others.
I also found it really difficulty to focus on a path of my past without my mind wanting to remember my sweet Svayam Bhagavan, my heart naturally wanting to sing songs to Him. In the end I felt, why am I fighting this?
I only wanted to feel that closeness to Hari that I felt before. In the past months- I felt like I was living in a world of halal/haram or permissible/prohibited but was not as happy. This is not a fault of the religion, but I think more of a symptom that this path was not for me.
It is with happines and humility that I come back to this section in the RF.
Much love and warmth!
Om Namo Narayanaya
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(I hope this post does not offend or aggravate anyone )