the documentary I watched with subjects that were administered DMT under doctor supervision seemed fried by the experience to me just like many people who did too much LSD seem fried to me. it is my opinion.
Iyuahuasca has been brewed by shamans for thousands of years and a medical team was not necessary to make sure the people woke back up. these subjects werent even conscious during the experience. It is not comparable in IMHO.
I don't want to scare you off from desiring from experiencing the Ayahuasca ritual, because it is a phenominal experience in my opinion, and I hope to experience it one day. However, from everything I've read (and it's a lot), the ayahuasca expererience is pretty violent. Massive vomiting, nausea, headaches, etc. There was a national geographic where a researcher did the ayahuasca ritual in a true native american village, and wow it was not pretty.
The Dark Side of Ayahuasca - MensJournal.com
Now, if they administered too high of a dose of DMT through an IV, then I can definitely see something going wrong. But I would wager to say if a doctor was there than it was some type of medical experiment, and he was there for insurance reasons.
It may be a "swooshy" sound to you but it was the loudest thing I've ever heard or felt in my life.
I was sitting crossed legged palms up and open facing east meditating did my usual breathing thing focusing on seeing with the third eye running a few thoughts- then- I listened -to my mass consciousness God and -it- happened then I got distracted by the thought "what if that's the devil" (Damn baptist upbringing) and it stopped.Afterwards I thought to myself OH, so all these people saying god talks to them are full of it because god doesnt use words or say anything and your ears don't hear it. I laughed about that. and afterwards I've been all kinds of sad and angry in ways I wasn't before. because I feel like I know stuff and it's just heartbreaking. and this happened on Prophets ascension day ( found that Muslim holiday was the date a few days later). that's what happened. I figured it was a massive third eye or crown chakra something. It has not happened since. my world has been turned over since it happened. All my intuitive stuff is off the charts - seriously like being born again. I wasn't trying to make it happen when it did. this whole thing has me my ego my personage my life totally spiritually and emotionally off center since it happened. I wish there was a place to go that practices religious fusion or something because thats what I'm doing and I can't go get advice from a guru or whatever for guidance. I even have my own mantra Om ma lei la ni a na. It's just a trip. I wrote this really really long poem a week before it happened and lots of stuff afterwards and I havent written in 10 years. I've written more in 2 months than I have in my whole life.
any how that's probably more info than you were asking for. I'm full of information ask away I'll answer the best I can.
Ahh indeed, as I said, people experience the sound differently, as their spiritual progression advances, at least according to Eastern religion adherents. Sounds like you had a massive burst of life force, as to where I only had a lil bit.
There is never to much information for me when spiritual matters are concerned. Especially when someone experiences an "enlightenment" type of event. I know first hand how scary they can be and how upside they can turn you world. I actually had my first experience with this type of thing while I was getting my hair dreaded.
As far as your struggles with your ego go, as others have said you cannot really "kill" your ego. From what I have gathered the more you try to fight your ego the more it wants to fight back. After all, it thinks it is the best thing since sliced bread lol. So when you try to get destroy, it is naturally going to do what it was made to do which is to survive.
As stated above the ego is not junk, it is a beautiful thing, and it is only trying to do what is best for "you" as the person you are right now. If you can help it realize that there is something beyond it that can make "you" better, then it will let go of it's control over you. Sometimes it still gets mad that it's not always the best lol, but if you can convince it that this "spiritual self" is good for you, which it most certainly is, then it will let your "spiritual self" shine through more and more.
As evidenced by previous comments in this thread, there are people on this forum that might not recognize themselves as gurus, but they definitely have a lot of knowledge when it comes to matters like this. Why be upset that you don't have one guru, when you have a bunch of them here on Religiousforums.com.