In my opinion, gods being kind to humans just because they can is a misconception. It doesn't mean they can't be kind, just that they have other things to do. Or the human isn't showing them a sign they should be helped.
I used to be just atheistic, but in truth I'm also a soft polytheist and agnostic. I believe the gods exist as represtations of something, and you can't really prove if they are anything outside of that. Are they conscious? That's hard to answer, since consciousness is a broad term in the first place. But if you believe in something, it does help.
I'll tell you a story. I actually have a lot of sudden pains constantly. Everything from a few-minute heart burn to sudden stabbing sensations in the spine. I don't know what causes the pain but part of it is likely hereditary. One day, I was tired of this pain. I did some magic, as I have been doing to seek my religious stance, but I actually spoke to a goddess of healing this time (instead of focusing on the pain). The next night, in my sleep, she actually appeared in my dream and healed me with light. I didn't even have a sore joint for two weeks after that. Was she real or just my imagination? Either way, the gods must have something to do with our minds. They are with us, as a part of us, but separate from our own consciousness. They are not our superiors, but our equals of another existence.
This goddess never received any devotion from me before. I came to her, and I said "this is what is wrong. I want to sleep without feeling pain. I am crying myself to sleep until four in the morning because it hurts so much. I can't see a doctor immediately and I can't take pills all the time. I read about your powers and I could use just enough to function again. Please ease my pain, for some time. I would be thankful if you could do that." And she did that. No daily prayer or sign of interest prior was required. I treated her more like a person than a divine entity and I got a clear answer from her. Now I make a point to give her thanks every week.
Am I still in pain? Sometimes. We can't always control our life. But thanks to this one goddess, who at first I doubted even existed, and I came to in my most painful moment, with a strong desire to not be in pain, and now I can function again on a physical level. My mental health has become better as well, because I'm in less pain and my mindset changed slightly now that I'm not focusing on it as much.
Natural belief is not forced. We believe in what we see. Everyone will see differently. I think the question most people are really asking when trying to find their religion is "How can I describe what I believe to other people?" Maybe if no one answered you yet, you're probably not realizing that not everyone is Jesus. Jesus creates miracles for the "good people". Maybe this miracle mindset doesn't work for you. Be creative and approach the gods with a less Christian mindset. Don't pray, ask. Don't devote, converse. Don't praise, speak. They might behave a little differently. Even if they don't heal directly, you'll probably feel better just by speaking your concerns and fears to them.
