Remember the Joni Mitchell song that was sung by Judy Collins, "Both Sides Now". I'm like that. I used to see God in the mountains. But then there's a rockslide, and avalanche, or like St. Helens, it blows up. Up in the skys, we have all the beautiful stars at night. And oh, a shooting star. Did you make a wish? But then we have stars going supernova. Asteroids crashing. Black holes sucking. I loved the ocean. But it's filled with sharks and other things that can kill you. Tsunamis can wipe out a whole seaside town. Yeah, for those that see God in his creation, what exactly are you looking at? It's both good and bad. So, if you see God in his creation, does that make God good and bad?
If death gets one to heaven is death bad? Was it bad to send Jesus to heaven?
I suspect that mental anguish is bad. So, the suffering that Jesus did on the cross was bad, and completely unnecessary. Unless, of coursse, God wanted Jesus to understand human suffering.
Even if life on earth is just an illlusion (like the Matrix movie), the anguish that one feels is still real.