Interview with a psychopath

[Nietzsche]

There has as of late, been a rash of threads relating to socio and psychopathy. These are not medical terms, the proper being anti-social personality disorder. I grow tired of correcting individual misconceptions, so here is a place for the curious to ask. I will however note that I am a borderline case. There are some batteries of tests regarding where in the anti-social personality disorder spectrum you fall, and the total average of mine classify me as a borderline case. Basically, I feel some empathy on my own, but not quite as much as the normal person. I am on a medication for it(well, it's a medication that was meant for something else but has shown to work for some of the symptoms of the disorder) which boosts my ability to feel empathy more. Still not enough to take me off the 'borderline' list, but it's something.

I do not take it all the time, however that's not because I'm shirking my meds, it's because I build up a tolerance and by having 'dry periods' my tolerance works back down.

So, ask away. Whatever crosses your mind, I do not care. Though note that this is only applicable to me, and my life experiences & unique form of the disorder.

 

[DreadFish]

As a borderline case, to what extent do you not feel empathy?

Also, what about feeling guilt?

 

[Nietzsche]

As a borderline case, to what extent do you not feel empathy?

To be honest that's a lot like asking a fish to explain what "wet" is like.

Also, what about feeling guilt?

Eh. Sometimes, sometimes not. Depends on the day, really. I'm not sure what 'normal guilt' feels like, so I don't know how to explain it.

 

[Rick O'Shez]

I will however note that I am a borderline case

Would you say that your condition ( hope that's the right word ) has caused any major problems in your life?

 

[Deidre]

What does love feel like to you?

 

[The Hammer]

Why, in your opinion, do you think that people tend to associate ASPD, with violent tendencies? Is that something that is normal? Or is it just creative license on the part of media?

 

[columbus]

What made you think you have a problem severe enough to require drugs?
Why do you think you have a problem might be a more concise question.

Tom

 

[jeager106]

I've interviewd a lot of psycho-sociopaths.
I didn't require that you posted you are "boarderline".
I suspected such.
I live with a skizophrenic & paranoid.
What an adventure that is.
Most are not a danger to the general public. But when they are it's disasterous.
I long for the days when the severe were hospitalized...permanently.
It was a bit of a safer world.

 

[mainliner]

There has as of late, been a rash of threads relating to socio and psychopathy. These are not medical terms, the proper being anti-social personality disorder. I grow tired of correcting individual misconceptions, so here is a place for the curious to ask. I will however note that I am a borderline case. There are some batteries of tests regarding where in the anti-social personality disorder spectrum you fall, and the total average of mine classify me as a borderline case. Basically, I feel some empathy on my own, but not quite as much as the normal person. I am on a medication for it(well, it's a medication that was meant for something else but has shown to work for some of the symptoms of the disorder) which boosts my ability to feel empathy more. Still not enough to take me off the 'borderline' list, but it's something.

I do not take it all the time, however that's not because I'm shirking my meds, it's because I build up a tolerance and by having 'dry periods' my tolerance works back down.

So, ask away. Whatever crosses your mind, I do not care. Though note that this is only applicable to me, and my life experiences & unique form of the disorder.

get well soon

 

[Nietzsche]

I've interviewd a lot of psycho-sociopaths.
I didn't require that you posted you are "boarderline".
I suspected such.
I live with a skizophrenic & paranoid.
What an adventure that is.
Most are not a danger to the general public. But when they are it's disasterous.
I long for the days when the severe were hospitalized...permanently.
It was a bit of a safer world.

The problem with locking them/us up is that with a narrow enough observation, everyone can be classified as psychopathic, schizophrenic, ect. Though I would like others to know: Schizophrenia is a wholy different beast from ASPD.

Would you say that your condition ( hope that's the right word ) has caused any major problems in your life?

None other than making me far less risk-averse than the standard. ASPDs don't feel fear, or at least not in the way others do. It's less "afraid" and more "I would really this rather not happen". It's why we tend to be extremely cool under pressure. We don't care.

What does love feel like to you?

Couldn't tell you. I can feel affection, but love? I don't know. Were I blind, it would be like asking me what I thought about red.

Why, in your opinion, do you think that people tend to associate ASPD, with violent tendencies? Is that something that is normal? Or is it just creative license on the part of media?

Because our risk/reward scale is rigged in a way. If we think it'll benefit us, and we think we have a reasonable(to us) chance of not getting caught...we'll do it. Violence is something that the majority of the people only abstains from because they fear the consequences. For ASPD, we're willing to take a greater risk.

What made you think you have a problem severe enough to require drugs?
Why do you think you have a problem might be a more concise question.

Tom

Wasn't my choice. I was required to do so after an incident.

 

[frangipani]

How do you perceive your existence?

 

[Nietzsche]

How do you perceive your existence?

Gonna need a little more to go on than that, dear.

 

[Deidre]

Couldn't tell you. I can feel affection, but love? I don't know. Were I blind, it would be like asking me what I thought about red.

This has been very helpful to me...you don't even know. Thank you.

 

[Nietzsche]

This has been very helpful to me...you don't even know. Thank you.

It should be noted that not all cases are the same, and that this reflects only myself.

I have a question for you, though. Is your name Sarah?

 

[frangipani]

Gonna need a little more to go on than that, dear.

Do you think this life is as good as it gets? Do you think there is anything more to yourself than the human animal? Do you think life is dog eat dog? Do you feel emotional pain for yourself, even though in your natural state you have no empathy for others? Can you be trusted?

 

[BSM1]

Boxers or briefs, N?

 

[Deidre]

It should be noted that not all cases are the same, and that this reflects only myself.

Okay, thank you...

I have a question for you, though. Is your name Sarah?

No lol...my real name is Deidre.
Why do u ask ...does my writing remind u of someone else?

 

[Nietzsche]

Do you think this life is as good as it gets?

If you're talking about an afterlife, I do not know. I do know, however, that it would be exceedingly difficult to put me in a worse situation. I'm kind of hoping for oblivion after death for that reason. Memory of pain can be just as bad as pain.

Do you think there is anything more to yourself than the human animal?

I'll assume you're talking about a spirit or such. I do not know. I see no reason for us to be special, but I also see no reason we couldn't be. However I'd bank on the "we aren't special" side.

Do you think life is dog eat dog?

Tends to be, whether you or I think it is or not.

Do you feel emotional pain for yourself, even though in your natural state you have no empathy for others?

I feel frustration, disappointment, ect. And it isn't no empathy. It's just significantly less.

Can you be trusted?

The worst person to be the judge of that tends to be the one who answers.

 

[Nietzsche]

Boxers or briefs, N?

Boxers, unless I'm feeling Heisenbergish.

Okay, thank you...



No lol...my real name is Deidre.
Why do u ask ...does my writing remind u of someone else?

Quite a bit, yes.

 

[jeager106]

The problem with locking them/us up is that with a narrow enough observation, everyone can be classified as psychopathic, schizophrenic, ect. Though I would like others to know: Schizophrenia is a wholy different beast from ASPD.


None other than making me far less risk-averse than the standard. ASPDs don't feel fear, or at least not in the way others do. It's less "afraid" and more "I would really this rather not happen". It's why we tend to be extremely cool under pressure. We don't care.

Couldn't tell you. I can feel affection, but love? I don't know. Were I blind, it would be like asking me what I thought about red.

Because our risk/reward scale is rigged in a way. If we think it'll benefit us, and we think we have a reasonable(to us) chance of not getting caught...we'll do it. Violence is something that the majority of the people only abstains from because they fear the consequences. For ASPD, we're willing to take a greater risk.


Wasn't my choice. I was required to do so after an incident.

"an incident" Really? What was the incident???????