It's about realising you owe your loyalty to something other, something bigger, than yourself. Once upon a time, we understood this. But nah, now it's me me me me me me, my thoughts, my wants, my my my. As though there is even a you, which we haven't settled on yet. One is meant to suffer for the sake of others. Or, when did everyone decide against this?Look, this isn't about your thoughts, it's about me telling you to stop wallowing and learning to love your country.
Committing suicide is a total repudiation of that loyalty.
It's the ultimate in selfishness.