Ben Avraham
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In the 70's, in the middle of the "Jesus Freak" movement, I had to try. I had never read the Bible, although having been raised Catholic. I had never heard of the term "being born again." So with nothing to compare to, I believed what I was being told was the truth, after all, it was Bible verses... Yes, spoon fed Bible verses. So verse by verse a foundation of belief in Jesus being the Savior was established. Very few controversial verses were ever mentioned. It wasn't until four years later, when I started having doubts, that I went to some Jewish friends and asked them why they didn't believe that Jesus was the Messiah. They showed me the verses, like in Matthew, that were taken out of context. So I began taking a closer look at all the things I had been taught. I'm still looking and still doubting.
But for the Christian believer, they see what they want to see. They see the virgin birth being prophesied in Isaiah along with "Lucifer" falling from heaven. They see their devil being talked about in Ezekiel and being a talking serpent in Genesis. But what I think keeps them believing is the power, the spiritual power they feel from believing. They "know" in their hearts that it's the truth. They can feel the Holy Spirit inside of them, guiding them. But, I felt the "Spirit" and I felt guided in three different religious beliefs and in two different forms of Christianity. So I had to ask myself... was the belief true, or did it feel true because I wanted it to be true and believed it was true? So I really think that if someone surrenders their heart to some concept of God, any concept of God from any religion, it's probably going to feel pretty good. It will probably be very liberating, until, like with me, the doubts creep in. Then, it all seems like make believe.
Fantastic experience you have come through. IMHO, the doubts have crept in because you probably continue today as you grew up a Catholic; without ever reading the Bible to exercise your own Freewill attribute.