I am sorry, but for all your intelligence, you do not understand that there is more to reality than the stuff you study. The source of you is the universe, you do not understand that when the concept of realization is used in the context of enlightenment, it implies the union of personal self with the source. Of the two, personal self and universal Self, only one is enduring, guess which?
You make claims, but provide no evidence to back them up. So why should I believe them?
I *understand* what you say. I just don't believe it. I am very familiar with the concept of a 'universal self' and such. I just find those ideas to be wrong.
So, like all religions, you claim that some aspect of self is enduring, but fail to actually demonstrate that aspect actually exists. you make grand claims, but deliver only trinkets.
As I have said, I once went through a mystical phase similar to what you seem to believe. I eventually realized I was simply talking to myself and that looking *outward* leads to more wisdom than looking *inward*.
But, if you are happy at your stage, go for it.