Dreamwolf
Blissful Insomniac
I have ADHD/OD and I have taken Ritilin, did absolutely NOTHING to help me it simply was not strong enough. I was on Dexatrine, yes it was also a drug used to treat add, it however NEVER did any good either. That is when my doctor stumbled onto a study that said anti-depressants were becoming very successful in thier use with add kids, so he prescribed it and I took it for a week and a week only. I quickly changed into basically another person (i.e.) uncontrolable temper, mood swings that you would not believe and close to psychotic episodes and I was only 10 at the time had I been put on Wellbutrin as a teen I probably would have ended up killing myself to keep from killing anyone else. It is important to mention that I was not at that time depressed at all, though I did and still do have a pretty bad temper and Wellbutrin was very successful in treating ADD but not ADHD few know it but the two work very differently. My medicinal adventure was not over yet, however, I was put on one last medication called Adderall, that was my savior basically I did not turn into a mini-psychotic at all, for the most part I did not change at all as far as side-effects, but I was able to pay more attention to the teacher than the fly on the wall (which before was reversed) and I did not walk around in a coma-like state. I did stop taking the medicine eventually because, though I already knew it, my doctor was a moron, he wanted to try other drugs idiotic to me why fix what is not broke? So I stopped going something I regret now as I did not make the grades I could have in high school had I been able to concentrate properly. I still fight the ADHD, I use caffine to help combat the hyperactivity, as it puts me to sleep and I have yet figured out how to reign in my mind fully I am getting better at it. It is very infuriating to not be able to control your brain, a concept most people can not relate to at all, I would appreciate that people not tell me that it was all in my head because it was! In a way anyway, my particular form is genetic my father had it too, though he was never diagnosed, he is 47 and does not know how to read because of it, simply no one knew how to teach him. He was later thought to be Dislexic, but this is easily dismissed as I taught him how to read for a very short time, I think he was embarrassed to have his daughter teaching him, when I could read at 8 better than him, though it took a whole team to teach me how to read and math *eh!* I still cannot wrap my brain around that. Even in this post you can tell how my brain wanders and it has taken me about 15-20 minutes to write this (sad I know) but I simply cannot sustain my concentration for to long and end up thinking about what I need to do tommorrow instead of what I am trying to get across to you all. You can tell my sentences are almost run-ons and I know this however instead of spending another 20 minutes fixing it I will instead give you all a look at how my brain works (scary thought I know) when not consciencously and constantly corrected. My thought patterns are simply like no one elses therefore no one else can tell me Yes I do need medicine or No you do not. I decide that for myself, I may be going back on the Adderall as soon as I can get the $400 neccessary for another test to see if I indeed still have ADHD/OD as I hope I do not. I hope I simply need better study habits and grammar lessons. Good grief this turned out to be a long post! Oh before anyone replies know that I was first diagnosed by four different liscensed Doctors that specialized in ADD and ADHD.
Blessings!
Blessings!