I loved the thread on Science and Vedanta, if my memory serves right. But I was not able to grasp much of it.
I can tell you what I believe and don't believe, but at the same time I have doubts about certain things.
I cannot accept the God of Christianity because of the cruelty that this God has. I cannot accept that Christ is a savior. I don't believe in avatars. I wish to believe in the soul, I wish to believe that we are one with all. I do feel that there is a higher Consciousness, but only because while in meditation my mind expanded, and I was enveloped in Love, at that moment I believed it to be God. Now I don't know what it was, but I know that the mind can expland and experienced this, and that it was real.
I ask, where did this Love come from. The Buddhists say within me. I could not buy that. Perhaps, I thought when my mind expanded I was in touch with All that is, but then if Brahman is not these things, if that One Consciousness is not this, then what is? And perhaps this One Conscousness that created (as some quantum physicists believe) also has Love and Hate within it, which would explain that the Christian God is correct after all, and that we being this God is the reason why we love and hate, and how some of us struggle to surpass this hate.
I hope I am making sense. My mind is little in these things. How often I wish that I were an intellectual, but I try.
I know one thing for sure. Prayers do not get answered and there is no God that intervenes with those on this earth. My prayers were not answered as a Christian, nor as a Hindu, and not as a Buddhist. In prayer you are alone, and so you have to create your own world, and I have mostly learned to do it through positive thinking.
But I desire to believe in reincarnation and maybe karma. I once had a lot of love for God, and that was shatterred, then years later I came to Hinduism and my love for a God was renewed, and I had my experience. Then I came to Buddhism and was told that my experience was an hallucination, and that meditating with the mind expanding could cause insanity. I left Buddhsim. I left religion. I miss Hinduism. Positive thinking can not take away missing God.
I can tell you what I believe and don't believe, but at the same time I have doubts about certain things.
I cannot accept the God of Christianity because of the cruelty that this God has. I cannot accept that Christ is a savior. I don't believe in avatars. I wish to believe in the soul, I wish to believe that we are one with all. I do feel that there is a higher Consciousness, but only because while in meditation my mind expanded, and I was enveloped in Love, at that moment I believed it to be God. Now I don't know what it was, but I know that the mind can expland and experienced this, and that it was real.
I ask, where did this Love come from. The Buddhists say within me. I could not buy that. Perhaps, I thought when my mind expanded I was in touch with All that is, but then if Brahman is not these things, if that One Consciousness is not this, then what is? And perhaps this One Conscousness that created (as some quantum physicists believe) also has Love and Hate within it, which would explain that the Christian God is correct after all, and that we being this God is the reason why we love and hate, and how some of us struggle to surpass this hate.
I hope I am making sense. My mind is little in these things. How often I wish that I were an intellectual, but I try.
I know one thing for sure. Prayers do not get answered and there is no God that intervenes with those on this earth. My prayers were not answered as a Christian, nor as a Hindu, and not as a Buddhist. In prayer you are alone, and so you have to create your own world, and I have mostly learned to do it through positive thinking.
But I desire to believe in reincarnation and maybe karma. I once had a lot of love for God, and that was shatterred, then years later I came to Hinduism and my love for a God was renewed, and I had my experience. Then I came to Buddhism and was told that my experience was an hallucination, and that meditating with the mind expanding could cause insanity. I left Buddhsim. I left religion. I miss Hinduism. Positive thinking can not take away missing God.