Loved your post! I thought of this quote from the UB:
"196:3.21 The exquisite and transcendent experience of loving and being loved is not just a psychic illusion because it is so purely subjective. The one truly divine and objective reality that is associated with mortal beings, the Thought Adjuster, functions to human observation apparently as an exclusively subjective phenomenon. Man's contact with the highest objective reality, God, is only through the purely subjective experience of knowing him, of worshiping him, of realizing sonship with him." UB 1955 IMOP
If interested the full context is here:
THE SUPREMACY OF RELIGION
Professor Norman O. Brown spoke of a newborn being "polymorphously-perverse." The child wants and expects everything in his periphery to bring him pleasure, or whatever he needs, or desires. He's perfectly subjective until he's taught he's not the center of the universe. The world begins to teach him about an "objective" reality where he's not the central figure, where he must share with his siblings, where morals and rules, not personal desires, are the order of the day.
The child that won't give up his pure subjectivity and play by the objective rules of the world becomes a pariah or rebel who often ends up in prison or worse. But the gross majority of people who totally give up the original subjective nature of the soul end up worse. They lose the only portal where God can be truly engaged since God is not part of the objective world, and can only be truly engaged subjectively. Those who seek him in the objective world will come up empty handed so that the best they can do is become religious without a personal relationship with God.
Rabbi Jacob Neusner said that though he concedes Jesus was most likely the greatest Torah scholar of his day, he would still not join his disciples and follow Jesus. Why? Because in Rabbi Neusner's words Jesus wasn't directly concerned with the objective world, Israel, the family, but merely the you, the individual soul. As Neusner points out, Israel was called at Sinai as a community, an objective group, who must make decisions and abide by rules that take every individual into account, objective rules, an objective society, law makers and followers.
Jesus wasn't direclty concerned with Israel, society, or community, to the same degree he sought out those polymorphously-perverse individuals who know in the deepest part of their being that God must reveal himself to them individually, singularly, soul-to-soul, in the most subjective sense there could possibly be, since otherwise there's no criteria to determine the reality of God except to trust the person or holy writ (written by a person) telling you about God and how to find God.
God must tell an individual the Bible is true. The Bible can't tell anyone its true, or that God is true, since we must ask how we know the Bible is true, thus setting up an infinite regression of criteria of truth. The only true criterion of truth is in the pure subjectivity of the soul.
When I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior as a youth, I totally realized the ramifications of my decision. I was making a purely subjective decision to make Christ the prism of my soul such that never again would I be able to question that decision based on so-called "objective" criteria since the decision I was making when I accepted Christ as my savior was a decision to reject objective reality as the guardian of my soul.
Anyone who understands what faith in Christ entails can never go back on that decision since part and parcel of the decision is to accept a purely subjective belief over anything that can be objectively determined. To turn around and try to determine if Christ is indeed one's savior (as the thread-seeder implies) contravenes the very decision made to accept Christ as a reality that transcends carnal-objectivity. Doing that is both illogical and cowardly such that anyone with the courage to truly accept the reality of Christ never turns back to their vomit like the dog who worries it might have missed something good in the objective reality they vomited up to make room for Christ. They turn back to re-swallow the vomit of the objective world in hopes it will fill the void in their gut it didn't fill the first time.
John