I'm kinda confused. You don't believe in a being responsible for creation but believe the OT is true as well as it being more beneficial to be part of a religious community?
Maybe you're an atheist trying to settle discrepancy between people believing in god and seeing it as positive while at the same time can't be involved in that positivity insofar you don't want to fake your your beliefs about god.
Or you could be an atheist that looks for a community that mirrors the religious one you're accustomed to.
Either way, if you don't believe a deity exists, you're an atheists. There's nothing wrong with being a theist, though. Nothing wrong with disagree and agreeing with christians about issues. If god to you is christ, it's between you and christ. If it's god, between you and god. However the case may be, I do see a contradiction.
Could you clarify?
yes, I will try my absolute best to clarify any contradictions I make, and I will start with an apology for both the past and future failures of my abilities to express myself as well as my vocabulary! you're right that I don't want to lie about my beliefs in God so I'll try to be accurate when I describe my beliefs.
I read Genesis and found it to be true, and yes Genesis describes Creation by God, and it is true I don't believe there is a being responsible for creation, but I do still have a conception of God, and, though He's not a being, the story Genesis tells of God creating the universe is still something I believe to be true. I just started reading a Bible I found, I'm not sure what the Christian interpretation of it is supposed to be or what it actually means or anything, but from my worldview of having no religious education and with my own idea of and relationship with God, I found it true.
To attempt to elucidate my idea of God, first I should say that I think personifying God is a choice. However it seems to be a very good choice to me, though I certainly can't say I know it's the best or only good choice. On top of that, I probably also have different ideas about what the non-personified God is, but despite those differences, Genesis is not somehow untrue when I read it, compared to if I believed. When I read it, to me it didn't say "God was a being and a force who made the Earth" it just said He did it, it was left open ended enough I guess that I could interpret it in the way I did? I saw the God I believe in in the stories of Genesis, non-literal though He may be.
And to attempt to elucidate what value I place on the text of Genesis, I will say that I believe those stories are stories that every human being who has ever lived knows whether they know that they know it or not, and I believe these stories have been told since we first communicated with one another, since we were first humans, from the dawn of civilization in countless incarnations, that these stories are something at a genetic level in human beings, inherent to us, not invented by us, and I believe that by telling them over and over across time and locations and cultures and religions -including the religions of the OT- and every possible human variable, we have rendered them true to the extent of our greatest current capacity. we've chosen and re-chosen the words we use each time we tell the stories, the words that are most true stay the same and the parts that aren't right are improved upon as they're changed to fit better. When I tell a child a fairy tale (many, if not all, of which are just as ancient as the stories of modern religions, and therefore similarly rendered true by time, even if addressing a different moral level) I pick the book that tells it in the way that I think makes it a good story! For some people that means as close to original text as possible, for some people it means the version where the damsel rescues herself. Over time the one that's true for the most people remains the prevalent version, but people can continue interpreting always.
The texts of the OT have had enough falsehood rendered out that they read as true even if you don't believe in the theology of the incarnation of the stories, the words have been picked enough times to be able to express the truth even to all the vastly different people with vastly different beliefs who believe the OT. and still, new translations and editions are published, study is still done, things still reinterpreted, made more true by the combined wisdom of every single human who has told the story. and EVERY human being has told the story.