I think my main problem is low self esteem (though to be fair, it isn't soooo low) and I need to work on expressing confidence. I don't really know how I look to others but I do recognise that people with low self esteem tend to be less attractive.
Pleasing others is a very tiring journey where the soul is lost. One of scholars said once; pleasing all people is an impossible task, if they werent please with their Lord how would they be pleased by His creatures ?
And seriously, thats what I love in wearing Hijab , you just dont care at all about guys think of you, you're confident, you know they're not looking at your body (since they see nothing lol ) , and when you talk to them (even though you try to avoid it if not necessary ) you know that they are talking to you instead of checking your body up and down ( and when you turn back to leave
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Confidence and security
, I love it
Oh yes, and you dont need a hollywood star to tell you what beauty should look likes
; you're just what you are ,nothing more nothing less , and instead of trying to look perfect, you spend your time perfectionning you soul and manners