Hi Aup and Ajay.
My life's importance as of now is sir, not to attain wisdom, but to not hurt people with my presence and words. If my presence also hurts, then I m sure will withdraw and go himalayas/etc., so no situation will go adverse because of me and everyone would be happy.
I think now that, I won't try to be very conscious of how people might think about me/my actions. Hereafter, if people got hurt of any of my words, then I can't do anything about it if I never intended to hurt them but only share out of love.
This doesn't mean I'm gonna speak continuously (I will remain silent). But, if questions are asked, I only speak out of love and never think "Oh God.. How he/she might gonna take this?.. Omg, they got hurt of my actions/words, I have to ask sorry to them, I must not hurt them anymore, etc.," as such. If they take it as love, very much better. If they take it of hate and hurting them, then it's upto them - because I never try to hurt them but only address the question with my thoughts/perception/knowledge.
Even I feel that, concerning "How people might take this?" and confusing in dilemma "Will they be hurt of it? No, I should not post this.. No,No, I should share this because they have to decide whether it is useful/not but not me.. No, No, I should not post, they themselves will learn, why I should post?..No, No, blah blah blah",
all these are egoistic (a bondage to people's minds).
I feel this "thinking of how people might take this", is not important in my life anymore (I share only out of love - this I know for sure, but if people think it of something else/in same way - it's upto them to decide how to take it), but just Brahman. If I think about "people's minds" upon what I speak, then I fall to thoughts.
So, just Brahman, Brahman, Brahman. Let Brahman take care of my words and silence in mind. I don't know how much practice and fallings it will take, but let's see.
Thanks a lot for the precious advices irrespective of my repeated fallings and learnings.