Leaning on any book is leaning on arms of flesh. Some beautiful ideas in the Bible, and some horrific ones too. All books are created with arms of flesh. I do not know if Jesus actually existed, or who authored which words in the Bible.
Funny thing with kids, often they will say "mom said you have to...", when mom said nothing of the sort.
Nothing is shown to be true because it is written in a book. Truth is revealed through applying ideas, not reading books.
I've watched a few documentaries on cults - Christian and otherwise. So strange, for all the groups - people crying, filled with spirit, all claiming they know the "truth".... Then the 2nd coming does not happen when predicted - and original texts of leaders like Charles Russell are buried, and new myths are created and new prophets like Rutherford are born... create your own "translation" of the good book to fulfill your own needs, call others corrupt while doing little to clothe the naked...
Keep waiting for armageddon and preaching doom...
The rest of humanity is not anxious for the world to be destroyed, we are celebrating and helping end racism, sexism, child abuse (much within church groups), and all the darkness perpetuated by ignorance of those who claim to know "the truth".
Free speech, free to disagree the elders, free to send leaders to jail for abusing kids, free to talk about unfulfilled predictions...
The righteous are not persecuted... Those who create contention, refuse to serve their country, refuse to allow children medical care, refuse to hold child molesters accountable - this is what brings persecution.
Sorry... you were probably born into it, like everyone else... there are a few who will celebrate their first Christmas this year, get their first gift from Santa. They have a new family now, a loving family that let's them question, and think, and honestly explore. When you are ready to leave, you will not be alone
the new dawn awaits.