I just hope I can get over this depression. I'm so tired of being lonely, of not knowing really how to interact with people and socialize, not being able to get work, and being dependent on my family which only delays my ability to come out live full time (not being able to find work also hinders this).
I did decide though that if on Monday I don't get the DCS job that I'm going to apply for SSI. And considering I have four conditions that are on "the list," in addition to physical work restrictions, I hope I'll be able to get it so I can have some sort of stable income that isn't contingent upon being able to find temporary odd jobs.