It sounds like you are around 80 years old
I'm a few month shy of 70 yo.
a guy who was brought up under the rule of law and safety set up in a Christianized Western country, probably America, gaging on your grammar, under the protection of their laws, based on the 10 commandments
I was raised in America, which government and laws are not based in the Ten Commandments. There are no laws about worshiping god or idols, none about honoring parents, none about coveting or adultery, and no law about observing a weekly day of rest, and most lying is legal. There are, however, laws against stealing and many kinds of killing, but the country isn't based on them and they don't appear in its constitution.
you use your relative wealth to prey on the younger poor woman of a country such as the Philippines
That's a good one. You're the typical zealous Abrahamist who has been taught to see atheistic humanists as unprincipled. I'm a happily married man of 33 years, and even if she allowed me other lovers, I wouldn't be interested.
I can see why you want to use your gaged conscience for making your choices.
I'm wondering if you meant gagged or gauged. Neither makes much sense there. But yes, I rely on my conscience for moral direction. Here's the thing: it rewards me when I meet my own standards, punishes me when I don't, and has been a reliable guide to date helping me to steer clear of contention and regret, so I have zero reason to defy it.
It is best to condemn the God who judges the morally corrupt
Atheists don't actually do that. We just ignore the people trying to tell us what to do using the literary device of an unseen god who allegedly commands and threatens us from outside of the universe. It's best not to conform to those rules. They weren't chosen because they're good for you. They were chosen because they induce submission and obedience in those that believe them.
along with the noise and everything being so unorganized, that you will crack, and with thoughts of going home, and have no home to go back too.
There's more of your Abrahamic pessimism. Look at what you're imagining here. Mexico is and has been my home for fifteen years, and I have no desire to return to the States even for a visit.
I told him to watch some Dr. Peterson pod cast. It seemed to help him a little. You might try it.
I'm not looking for life advice. I recognize that name. The little I've heard from him is unappealing to me. Too conservative, too angry, and too preachy.
From your perspective it's not Religion because of what you have been taught Religion to mean.
I wasn't taught what religion is. My definition is my own and no doubt differs from yours. I don't consider a naturalistic worldview like atheistic humanism a religion. It has no supernaturalism, no gods, no rituals, and no holy books.
Practitioners of Natural Religion Believe that Nature is the Highest Form of Existence and Live/Die their life as such.
I believe that nature may be the only form of existence, that, that all that exists does so naturally and is thus a part of nature.
Almost every person on the planet is Content with the Natural Life.
Surveys tell us that most people believe in some form of supernaturalism.
On a Few Really Believe in the Spiritual Working to Transcend the Natural.
And what is their reward for holding such a belief? Dozens of RF posters have made claims of seeing further and arriving at spiritual truths and great insights, but I'm done asking them for examples. They have none, just the claim. It seems that having that belief satisfies some need that's foreign to me, maybe a need for there being magic in the world that I also don't seem to have.
What has whatever it is that you are doing different from people like me taught you and how have those ideas served you? Please be specific. Generalizations wouldn't dispel my current opinion about all of this being just words without substance.